Look Before You Leap [True Blood]

9: Time Passes, Things Change

Three Months Later

I laughed. "Stop it!"

"No," He said ticking me again.

"Stop it Alcide!" I whined.

My cell phone rang. "Oh it's Lily, thank god."

"Hey Lil!" I answered. "How's King Bill?" I asked in my best Bill impression

She laughed. "He's fine. He still wants you to come home."

"Oh he'll get over it. I like Jackson."

"No you just like Alcide. Have you talked to Eric?" She asked.

"Not since we broke up," I said quietly.

"He wants you to come home too," Lily said.

"I'm sure he does," I sighed. "It's too hard. I can't live right there and see her house everyday and know that I should've done something about it."

"It's not your fault," Lily said.

"Everyone says that but you didn't have the feeling. You didn't know something was wrong. I did."

Lily sighed. "Bill wants to talk to you."

"Put him on."

"Hello Rachel," He said.

"Hey."

"How's Jackson?"

"It's great. How's being the King of Louisiana?"

"Its work but I'll live," He laughed.

"Lily says the house looks fantastic."

"It does. She helped design it. You'd love it, if you ever came home."

"Bill you know how I feel."

"Eric blames himself."

"It's not his fault. He couldn't have saved her. And he couldn't have stopped me from leaving." I sighed. "I really wish everyone would stop talking about Eric."

"I'm sorry."

"Look I'll talk to you soon."

I hung up.

"Are you alright?" Alcide asked.

"Yeah."

"I know its hard getting over someone," he said.

"I just wish everyone would stop talking about it. It was my choice."

Two Months Later

"Do you remember that night; Bill had broken up with Sookie, we had just got her into bed and we were sitting on the couch and I started crying?" I asked.

"Of course," He said.

"I don't cry about a lot of things."

"I've noticed. You're pretty tough."

I laughed. "I guess I am." I paused. "Did you cry over Debbie?"

"Yeah, I guess. Why?"

"I never cried over Eric."

"You just bottle everything up don't you?" He asked.

"I do. It's bad. I'll end up exploding one day."

Two Months Later

I had the apartment all to myself one night. Alcide was out for a work thing. Janice was supposed to be coming over and we were going to watch chick flicks and she was going to do my hair but she ended up having a date and had to cancel. Not that I minded being alone it was relaxing.