Left Behind •Kenji Kon• Camp Cretaceous

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💞Trinity💞

I crouch down behind a tree and stare at Kash's compound with Kenji standing behind me. We've been waiting for Darius to be able to slip away so he can give us the information he's gathered from Kash. "We still don't know what Kash's next move is or why he wants to control those dinos."

"Uh, I know why. The dude's a total psycho," Kenji whispers to me and Brooklynn glances over at me. She's been airing out her total disagreement of this entire plan, but I couldn't give a shit. She's made decisions I don't like and so have the rest of the group. But I kept my mouth shut unless it was a group discussion so she can extend the same curtsey.

But of course true to her nature she hasn't. "And the longer Darius is with him, the more danger he's in," she tells me for about the thousandth time since leaving Darius behind. "And if Darius thought he was in real danger he'd leave okay?! No matter what it took so just zip it for ten goddamn minutes, Brooklynn. Can you do that?"

She narrows her eyes at me, but keeps her mouth shut and I silently thank God it worked. Kenji crouches down beside me while Ben continues to pace behind us and I try to ignore the noise. "Hey, you okay? You're a little more quick tempered than usual?" I look over at him with an amused gaze.

"You think I'm quick tempered?"

"I think it might be hereditary," he shoots back and I chuckle silently, nodding. Yeah, but my dad really only showed anger at anything having to do with Kenji. Everything else and my dad is usually pretty calm. He just gets overprotective of things/people he cares about. I haven't learned to be as patient as him sometimes.

It doesn't help that we've been nonstop running for our lives for six months. It feels like so long ago that we had a decent meal, shower, sleep schedule. And some may disagree, but I miss school. Not to mention my friends that I got to see everyday. I just miss my routine and feeling safe.

On killer dino islands there is no schedule, no routine, no sense of normalcy at least not for more than a few seconds. I'm afraid and anxious almost all the time which makes me less tolerant of others. And my lack of decent sleep doesn't help my situation.

Frankly, no one seems to notice how much I've been struggling lately. Except for Kenji. It's just kind of hard to be happy and civil when I've been feeling so horrible. "I'm just hanging on as hard as I can," I whisper so that the others can't hear, but with how close in proximity we are to each other I wouldn't be surprised if I was being quiet for nothing.

"Hanging on to what?" He whispers back and I pull my hair out of its ponytail as the cool night wind sends a shiver down my spine. I swallow against the lump in my throat as all my negative feelings try to overwhelm me at once, but I force them back. Keep it together. Can't fall apart now.

I've never been good at handling my emotions. One day I'll be relatively happy and then the next I'll breakdown crying for no reason. Just the littlest negative thought can bust open the flood gates and threaten to drown me with all my repressed stress and sadness. And since getting stuck on Isla Nublar and then here it's been one bad day after another.

It's getting harder to find that silver lining. I'd have broken a long time ago if it wasn't for these guys. "Hey," he whispers softly and I blink when his hand enters my field of vision and he slides his palm against mine, linking our fingers together making me smile sadly. "We're here for you Trinny. There's no one we'd rather follow while Darius is doing is undercover mission than you."

"Yeah. You're smart and know how to handle yourself," Yasmina chimes in and I glance over toward her as Sammy nods from beside athletic girl. "Exactly. You're a quick thinker and you always try to do what's best for this group. No matter what."