Questioning//BILLIE EILISH

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I look up Mia's name and find some random YouTuber. Deciding that was boring, I look up Billie's name.

Billie Eilish

My page loads, and the first thing I see is Billie's name, and directly below it, a few pictures of her with various hair colors. My heart flutters at the sight of my crush, and I click on the pictures.

There are so many.

Some of them have backgrounds like she's on some sort of red carpet, and others are captioned mentioning an interview or article.

My heart beats faster as I scroll and click on the links. I find a video interview and open it. In it, she has silver hair, and the cutest little smile.

As I watch, I learn that Billie is an up and coming artist, though this interview seems a bit old, maybe a couple years. Now being on YouTube, I find a few music videos she's made and watch and listen dutifully.

I find myself in disbelief at Billie's talent and my mind wanders back to a few minutes ago when she was in my house.

I try not to think of her differently, having learned from a couple of interviews that people have taken advantage of her money and fame.

I suppose that may be why she's so nervous at school.

"Hey, Dez? I think I left my phone and-" Billie cuts herself off and I quickly shut my computer and turn around to face the doorway.

"Oh, uhh hey, B-Billie."

Billie pauses before speaking, taking a deep breath before acknowledging the pictures on my screen.

"Dez.. oh god," she seems panicked, I can almost see the gears turning in her head as her breathing picks up.

I'm not sure what to do, I find myself paralyzed with nervousness. A literal famous person is standing in front of me.

"Billie, hey. Please, please calm down. Look, I'm not gonna tell anyone."

I slowly get up as I gather the courage and walk over to her. She seems to be holding her breath, a tear sitting on the edge of her lower eyelashes, waiting to fall.

"Hey," I say softly, "Don't worry."

My shaking body wraps it's arms around her torso and Billie rests her face in my neck. She lets out a sigh and I feel a small droplet of water hit my skin.

"Shh shh. I'm trying not to think of you differently. I promise."

She lets out singular laugh, "You're trying?"

I can hear the built up tears in her voice along with her usual cocky tone.

I laugh, feeling slightly more at ease, "Well you look really hot standing on a red carpet."

Suddenly I am the one holding my breath, "I- I mean. Intimidating, you know? That look you give people. I- It translates well over camera."

I can feel Billie's body shake in my arms as she lets out a few laughs, "Im trying to give you time to tell me how you feel, but you just keep exposing yourself," she says into my ear.