this is me trying c.s

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AN: Possible TW; mention of hard drugs

I went to school today and realized finals were at the end of next week.

My Mom and I had to change our flights from Wednesday to Tuesday night.

It's not a big difference but now I'm leaving from a shoot straight to the airport.

I'm on my way to Chris' an hour before I was going to get him. He said he needed help with something.

It's really sunny outside and bright days always remind me of when I was younger. So, I'm listening to my old playlist filled with songs I used to listen to on the way home from the pool.

Classic by MKTO just played. That was my shit. It was always on repeat. When we were younger I tried to be like my brothers in every way possible. So, I stole Spencer's favorite song and it became mine.

Give Your Heart A Break by Demi Lovato

The day I first met you
You told me you'd never fall in love
I get memories of Chris and I in the kitchen when we first hung out.

But now that I get you
I know fear is what it really was

Now here we are
So close yet so far
Haven't I passed the test?
Literally what are we.

When will you realize
Baby, I'm not like the rest
Fuck that blonde girl.

Don't wanna break your heart
Wanna give your heart a break
For real.

I know you're scared it's wrong
Like you might make a mistake
Me and you both.

There's just one life to live
And there's no time to wait, to wait

So let me give your heart a break
Give your heart a break
Let me give your heart a break, your heart a break
Oh, yeah, yeah
No thoughts, just screaming the lyrics.

On Sunday you went home alone
There were tears in your eyes
I thought back to the night we left the party, just the two of us.

I called your cell phone, my love
But you did not reply

The world is ours
If we want it, we can take it
If you just take my hand
There's no turning back now
Baby, try to understand

Don't wanna break your heart
Wanna give your heart a break
I know you're scared it's wrong
Like you might make a mistake
There's just one life to live
And there's no time to wait, to wait
Screaming.

So let me give your heart a break
Give your heart a break
Let me give your heart a break, your heart a break
There's just so much you can take
Give your heart a break
Let me give your heart a break, your heart a break
Oh, yeah, yeah

When your lips are on my lips
And our hearts beat as one
I just realized we haven't kissed him since before I left.

But you slip out of my fingertips
Every time you run
Better not.

Whoa-oh-whoa-oh-oh

I'm out of breath.

Stereo Hearts came on, I've never skipped so fast. I have to take that off my playlist, it gives me icky nostalgia instead of good nostalgia.

I listened to Sharships, Dynamite, and ended Tonight Tonight.

I sat outside the the Sturniolo's house while the song finished before I went in.