The SEKAI - Nightcord at 25 x Reader

To Be So Lonely

- Mizuki's Room -

"It's already 25:00? Everyone was really on edge last night. I hope we have a little more fun today." Mizuki said and joins the voice chat.

[Mizuki]: <Hey there! Everyone ready to get some work done? Huh? Is it just you, Enanan? Where's K and C/n?>

[Ena]: <They're not here. They're been AFK all day...>

[Mizuki]: <What? K hasn't overdone it already, has she? And C/n, I haven't heard anything about her now.>

[Ena]: <I don't know. I send a DM, but they never responded.>

[Mizuki]: <I hope everything's all right. I knew K taking on anything like that would be too much. Without Yuki...>

[Ena]: <We don't need Yuki.>

[Mizuki]: <Come on, Enanan. You're not still angry, are you? If you keep frowning like that, you're going to end up with wrinkles.>

[Ena]: <I'm not angry. I'm just saying that Yuki has no reason to be part of N25 anymore. If she can make such great songs on her own, then why wouldn't she?>

[Mizuki]: <That may be true, but still...>

(Enanan's acting strangely too. I guess I can't say I'm feeling all that great either, though. Everyone's worried about something. I'm sure even K, C/n, and Enanan are the same way.) Mizuki thought.

Flashback

"Be honest, C/n, K, Enanan, Amia... You all want to disappear more than anyone." Yuki said and looks and Y/n.

Present

[Mizuki]: <.... I bet Yuki's been struggling for a while now, too.>

[Ena]: <What?>

[Mizuki]: <The day Yuki disappeared, Me and C/n overheard her and her mom talking. Her mom seemed like the kind of person who tends to push their own sense of values on others. Yuki brushed it off, saying that it doesn't really bother her. I figured it wouldn't be a problem if she was fine with things, but you saw the way she was acting in that place. It made me think maybe Yuki was trying to please her mom by going along with whatever she thought was best.>

[Ena]: <....>

[Mizuki]: <It's probably not just her mom , either. Maybe Yuki had been changing herself to fit in with the expectations of everyone around her. Maybe she thought she had to always be a good girl, never inconveniencing others in order for them to like her. And now it's finally become too much to handle and she doesn't know what to do anymore. At least, that's the feeling I get.>

[Ena]: <....>

[Mizuki]: <I'm not saying I'm perfect or anything. But I think I understand how she feels. I know how suffocating it can be always feeling pressured to fit into other people's expectations of you.>

[Ena]: <I didn't realize you felt that way too.>

[Mizuki] <Yeah, well... Hey, wait a minute! What do you mean by that?! Even I have stuff to deal with, you know!>

[Ena]: <Oh, sorry. It's just that you always sound so carefree. Like you're always having fun.>

[Mizuki]: <Oh, well you've gotta enjoy life while you can, right? It's no fun being negative all the time! Don't you want to live every day to its fullest, Enanan? ♪>

[Ena]: <Well, sure. I want to enjoy myself.>

[Mizuki]: <I think Yuki just wasn't able to do that, though. I bet she's been struggling alone for so long that she just reached her breaking point.>

[Ena]: <....>

[Mizuki]: <If Yuki really did end up like this from being in so much pain, and now feels likes she just wants to disappear... I just think that sounds kinda sad.>

[Ena]: <....>

[Mizuki]: <I'd like to try talking to her again. We can go back by playing that Untitled song, right? If that's true...>

[Ena]: <That's what Miku said. But will talking to Yuki in her current state of mind archive anything?>

A notification sound was heard.

[Ena]: <What was that?>

[Mizuki]: <Oh! It's a notification about OWN. Yuki uploaded a new song!>

[Ena]: <Another one? She just released one not too long ago.>

A notification sound was heard again.

[Mizuki]: <What? Two songs in a row? Wait, now it's three?>

[Ena]: <How many is she making? What kind of songs are they?>

They were so curious so they clicked the song.

[Ena]: <What the hell? They're even darker than before.>

[Mizuki]: <Woah! I'm getting shivers!>

[Ena]: <This isn't good. I can't put it into words, but I have a bad feeling about this...>

Flashback

"But if I can't find myself even then... Then I'll just have to disappear." Yuki said.

Present

[Ena]: <Was she serious?>

Then Y/n and Kanade joined the voice chat.

[Y/n]: <Enanan. Amia.>

[Mizuki & Ena]: <C/n! K!>