Cursed Kiss (Curse #1)

Chapter 41

Chapter 41

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"I been damaged all these years. Why don't you heal me, and start loving me now for real?" he asked sarcastically.

Natigil ako dahil sa tanong niya.

I wanted to end our relationship before and now why do I feel like I want to continue it? Hindi dapat ganoon, Noella. Matanda ka na, dapat ay sigurado ka na sa nararamdaman mo. He is wrecked, he will be more wrecked if I come back. It might even end up with things worst than that.

But why did he appear right in front of me? Kung kailan naman nanghihingi ako ng senyales sa langit... Could it be? Posible ba? Baka naman pwede na?

At the end of the day... only God knows. He makes plans. If it will be allowed this time, nothing can ever stop it. It won't come complicated. It won't be hard. Hindi na magagalit si Abuela, hindi na tututol si Mama. My sister will accept it too.

"Bakit hindi ka na naman makasagot?" he tilted his head and waited for my answer patiently.

If it's meant to be, I won't be able to forget him and he won't be able to forget me.

"I am sorry..." that's all I managed to say despite of all my thoughts. "Sorry, I'm being selfish," I nodded, understanding the situation. Kung para siya sa akin, the universe will make it's way. "You are now free to move on. Find someone you can settle with... You are free. I give it all to Him... to God."

Tumango rin siya, ngayon naman ay nakita ko na ang ngiti niya. "If it's meant to be, it will be. In God's will, in God's time."

Malalim ang buntong-hininga ko habang pinagkakatitigan ang pagkain sa hapag. Hindi naman sa ayaw ko pero nag-iisip lang ako ng malalim.

Ilang araw na rin simula nang pag-uusap na iyon. Wala naman akong naramdaman na pinagkaiba. Ayon nga lang, I think it is a percent better now. At sa tingin ko ay mabuti na rin iyon, medyo naklaro na.

"When will be your flight back to Spain?" Abuela gave me a glance.

Muntik ko nang makalimutan na babalik nga pala ako ng España.

"In..." I counted the days in my mind. "In four days, Abuela."

"Mababait naman ang mga katulong sayo?" she asked... For a moment I thought that she might be worried about me. But... I can only believe that.

"Hindi naman po nila ako inaaway," iling ko. "Tahimik lang po sila at...hindi namamansin."

Parang mga robot at multo lang sa Manor na naglilinis at nagpapanatili kaayusan. Tapos nag-d-day-off tuwing linggo. Sometimes I'd like to call them ghost maids.

Tumango lang si Abuela sa sinabi ko at kumain na lang ulit. Speaking of maids...

I looked at our longest serving maids who was attending us right now while we eat. Nakatayo silang tatlo sa gilid ng dining table. Dati, I invite them to eat with us whenever we have breakfast, lunch and even dinner. But they never do that, hindi naman sila pinagbabawalan. They are just doing their jobs right.

Dati bago ako umalis, sigurado naman ako na hindi lang sila tatlo. There was a new one before named... Ro...Rosea. Nasaan na yon? I'm pretty sure she was assigned to me before. I haven't seen her for the weeks I've been here.

"Di ba..." I trailed. "Di ba po may bago tayong katulong dati bago ako umalis? Si Rosea, where is she?"

Umangat ang tingin sa akin ni Rahim dahil sa naging tanong ko. But he just quietly lowered his gaze back to the food. Maging si Ate, Mama at Lian ay naging tahimik lang. Si Vier naman na katabi ni Ate ay wala namang malay sa tinanong ko. Si Sergio naman ay parang hinihintay rin lang ang sagot nila sa tanong ko. The whole table fell silent with that question.