"𝐎𝐍𝐋𝐈𝐍𝐄 𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐓-𝐀𝐒𝐓𝐑𝐎𝐏𝐇𝐄" - kozume kenma x male!reader

37 - shitcon! pt3

y/n's pov:
i feel MISERABLE. IS KOZU PRETENDING LIKE NOTHING EVER HAPPENED?

i feel so shitty about making him feel uncomfortable yesterday, HE LOOKED SO UPSET WHEN IT HAPPENED.

I PROMISED MYSELF THAT I'D KEEP HIS FEELINGS IN MIND. ALWAYS.

i am an asshole. I COULDN'T EVEN SLEEP BECAUSE I WAS SO TROUBLED BY IT.

i kept apologising about what happened yesterday and he says he completely forgot about it. UM HELLOOOO? IS THAT A LIE SO THAT I FEEL BETTER? NO. I WILL NOT ACCEPT THAT.

WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO. MAYBE ITS ME? AM I THE ONLY ONE BOTHERED BY IT? DOES HE ACTUALLY NOT CARE?

okay. lets think this through. after the incident, he couldn't even look me in the eye. but then after the call with kuroo, he looked more at ease?

MAYBE KUROO KNOWS SOMETHING. IM SO SMART.

i pick up my phone and call kuroo.

beeeeep. beeeeep. beee- oh my god how long do i have to wait for this fucker to pick up-

"Y/N, HI, TSUKISHIMA KISSED ME TODAY! AND AND, HE KEPT THE DINOSAUR KEYCHAIN HE TOLD ME HE THREW OUT, ISNT THAT SO CUTE, HES SO CUTE, IM GONNA DIE. OH EM GEE, AND YOU KNOW WHAT-"

i hang up.

oh my god. my head hurts. help me.

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kenma's pov
obviously i didn't forget. that was a lie. im horrible at lying in his eyes, so he probably figured that out.

i have no idea how to get him off his toes around me now.

even while were roaming around at shitcon, he keeps asking me before touching me anywhere. like, just to hold my hand or to keep his hand around my waist or even tuck my hair behind my ear, he asks me for permission.

he's already my boyfriend. i don't get why he's so bothered. honestly, i feel like he should be more touchy without even having to ask at this point.

maybe i made him feel uncomfortable by letting out that weird noise? or maybe he saw that i got hard?

oh, he just picked up his phone to call someone. who's he calling? nevermind, since he hung up that fast, they must not be that important.

anyways. im just gonna start making moves on my own.

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y/n's pov:
well. kuroo is useless. as always. WHY DID I EVEN BOTHER?

oh my god. what do i do. do i just pretend to be unbothered too? no way. that's impossible for me.

"n/n. let's go back to the hotel room. my legs hurt." i heard kenma say.

i stopped walking and turned around. "okay. let's go." i smile at him and we make our way to the hotel.

kenma suddenly brushes his hand against mine as we walk. does he want to hold my hand? maybe it was a mistake.

i pretend like i dont notice and keep walking.

"do you not want to hold my hand?" he speaks up.

"i do.." i hesitate before grabbing his hand.

he seems content with my actions. it shows from the smile on his face.

once we finally reach the elevator of the hotel, kenma quickly presses the button to close the door.

i look at him, feeling a bit confused, until he pulls me down by my shirt and kisses me.