Being Good Enough

Chapter 32

Khadijahs POV

Kiana removed her hand from the back of my head and placed it on my left cheek. Her touch is what put me back in reality. I pulled away and jumped up. Kiana fell back on the floor probably because of my sudden move. The high completley wore off. All I want to do is leave.

"Aw, why ya stop?" Victor whined.

I ignored him and went to the front door. "I'm-i'm gonna go."

I bolted out the driveway. I have no idea where I am but I'll just walk the way we came.

My heart was pounding. A bunch of questions were running through my mind. Does she like me? Is she lesbian? But she likes a boy. Maybe its because of the weed. Yeah, thats what i'm going to go with. And I think thats the reason that I kissed back, because I was under the influence of something.
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Luckily, I didn't get lost walking home.

"Khadijah, is that you?" Grandma called out.

"Yeah, its me," I replied. My heart wasn't pounding anymore but I was still in shock.

"How come you're back so early?"

"Um, they cancelled the tutoring today," I answered.

Before she could keep talking to me I rushed to the bedroom and closed the door. I looked at my phone in my hand. Should I text Kiana? Nope, i'm not ready for that conversation. For now i'm just going to take a nap and act like nothing happened.
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The next day I was awoken by my phone vibrating. Yeah, i'm that much of a light sleeper. I looked down to see that I had a message from Kiana. It was Saturday and I wanted to sleep in but my curiousty got the best of me. I sat up and rubbed my eyes to get adjusted to the light.

Hey b -Kiana, 10:52 am

Well, that was underwhelming. I was expecting something much more exciting or surprising. I thought she would mention the kiss? But if she won't bring it up then neither will I. It'll save me a lot of awkwardness.

Hey, wyd? -Khadijah, 10:53 am
Nothin so Trey is havin a party tonite -Kiana, 10:53 am
Sooo -Khadijah, 10:54 am
So we gon be lit -Kiana, 10:55 am
We? -Khadijah, 10:55 am
Ya we ill pick you up at 8. we can get ready at my house -Kiana, 10:56 am
No lol -Khadijah, 10:56 am

Kiana is funny if she thinks i'm going to that party.

Yes lol -Kiana, 10:57 am
Bye Kiana, you swear your my mom. -Khadijah, 10:57 am
its saturday and you wanna stay at home? wack af -Kiana, 10:58 am
Oh well -Khadijah, 10:59 am
your going idgaf what you say. -Kiana, 11:00 am
Why do you even want me to go? -Khadijah, 11:01 am

I've never drank, I've smoked one time, and I don't like sex. These types of parties are not for me. If I go with Kiana, I'll just keep her from having fun.

bc your 17 and never been to a party its mad sad -Kiana, 11:02 am

I hate that Kiana is right. I really need to get out of my house more. This is the type of thing I meant when I said that I need to change. A party is the perfect place to socialize.

Fine, I'll go -Khadijah, 11:04 am
yaas! i got the perfect dress for you -Kiana, 11:04 am

I clicked my phone off and put my head back down. I hope tonight goes well.
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It was hard to believe that the girl I was looking was me. I looked completley different! Kiana picked out a tiny black dress for me (in media) with a pair of red strappy heels. I never thought I was ugly, I actually considered myself pretty. But damn tonight I actually looked sexy!