Being Good Enough

Chapter 35

Khadijahs POV

After walking back inside the apartment, I immediatly went to the kitchen. In the fridge was a delicious, unopened box strawberry cream pie. Instead of slicing myself a peice, I opened the box and began eating it like that. Food helps me think.

Thinking about the day I slept with Chris after the party made me mad. I've come to realize that i'm a weak person. I always go back to Chris no matter how terribly he treats me. I was really thinking about giving him another chance.

Our talk today has really made those kind of thoughts leave my mind. I don't want to be with Chris ever again. And this time i'm serious.

I'm pretty sure the reason he said he was only dating me to fuck was because he's embarrassed. He didn't want his friends to know that he actually likes a loser girl like me. Thats what really hurt me. I really cared about Chris. But he choose his friends stupid opinion over me.
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For some reason I reverted back to my old ways. I missed my hoodies. Even though they weren't too stylish, they were still stylish. Its not like I have anyone to impress anyway. Kiana and I still haven't talked. I'm hoping that she'll be here today so I can talk to her. Luckily, I saw her standing a little down the hallway.

"Hey Kiana!" I shouted.

"Hey, I ain't see you in a minute," Kiana replied.

"Yeah. So how come you left me at the party?" I said, getting straight to the point.

"Listen, that was fucked up of me. Fuckin' Victor grabbed me. Sorry."

"And you didn't reply to anything I sent you."

"Girl, I was gettin' dicked down. I ain't gave time to reply," She chuckled.

I scrunched my face at how blunt she was. "Anyways, how come you weren't here yesterday?"

"Woke up late. Ain't no point in going," Kiana said. "So, how you got home?"

The teachers began telling everyone to finish up at the lockers and go to class. Me and Kiana had to go different ways but she told me to go to the bathroom so we can finish our conversation. A few minutes later, we got to the bathroom.

"Where were we?" I asked Kiana.

"Oh yeah, how you got home?"

"Ugh, the party was terrible. Some guy tried to touch me. I drank some lean, I was crying, it was a mess. I saw Chris and he ended up taking me home," I explained.

Kiana wiggled her eyebrows at me. "Ohh what happened? And don't give a bullshit story about how you and him ain't do anything."

"We really didn't do anything."

"Oh I get it, you don't kiss and tell?"

"Nope, nothing happened. And nothing is ever gonna happen," I said confidently.

"How many times you said that before?"

"This time i'm serious."

"What happened?"

"I saw Chris yesterday. He tried to say sorry or whatever. It was a fake ass apology too," I said.

"So thats whats getting you so tight?"

"No theres more. Basically, he told Keeis and Red that hes only dating me for sex not because he really liked me. Thats why they did the bet," I explained.

"What you said to him?"

"I told him to stop talking to me," I replied.

"Khadijah. . ." Kiana trailed off, shaking her head.

"What?"

"Lemme just be honest. Ion really believe you."

"Really? Why?"

"You'll go back to him, just watch," Kiana said.
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Its been hours since that conversation but I was still stuck on it. Kiana doesn't know what shes talking about. At all. Me and Chris and done, and thats it.

Speaking of Chris, I saw him walking over to me. Why is he always around?! Its like the world wants us to be together. He annoyingly blocked my path as I was trying to walk.

'"Get out of my way," I demanded. He just stood there like an idiot. When I moved he would move do I couldn't go anywhere.

"Didn't I say leave me alone?" I questioned.

"Ion give a fuck," Chris smirked.

"Well, I do. So bye," I said. I crossed the street in order to continue my walk. It irked my soul that Chris continued to follow me. He jogged up to my side.

"Damn, you serious 'bout the talking thing?" Chris asked.

"Obviously."

I was happy when I noticed that Chris had stopped walking along side me. I got concerned when I felt myself being pulled backwards because of a tight grip on my hair.

"Ow, let go!" I yelped.

Of course it was Chris who touched me. "Drop that fucking attitude when you talk to me," he growled.

Chris doesn't scare me anymore. I scoffed and elbowed him to create distance between us. "Fuck you," I said walking away.

"I'm sorry!" Chris shouted. Yep, he's definitley not taking his pills.
"I'm serious, i'm sorry!" Chris yelled after I didn't reply to him.
He ran up to me again.

"I just don't like to be ignored," Chris said.

"And I just don't like being used for money but what are ya gonna do?"

"How many times do I have to say sorry?"

"As many times as it takes for me to forgive you."

"Khadijah, I messed up with you so bad. You are the greatest girl I've ever met. I've never liked a girl as much as I like you. I did the bet because i'm a dumbass. I know that i'm not good enough for you and you deserve way better. We don't even have to date. Just please, please forgive me," Chris pleaded with me.

It was actually tugging on my heart strings seeing him being so honest and vunerable. I hate that i'm kinda proving Kiana right.

"Chris, you really hurt me. I didn't deserve that," I mumbled. I was getting emotional and if I spoke up I know my voice would crack.

"I know. But I just need one more chance. Please baby."

"Maybe," I softly smiled at Chris.

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Hey, everyone! I never thought my story would get so popular. As of now I have about 14k reads, 1k votes, and 600 comments. Thank you so so much to everyone. Seeing all the support i'm getting is what I use as motivation for this book. I'm happy that so many of you like it and thanks once again. -Khadijah