Fall Apart

Chapter 17

In the next three or so weeks I had finished the song and was now in the recording booth. I had just finished playing the accompaniment and now it was time for vocals. I listened to the count in from my producers in my headphones and started singing.

"Somebody once told me

Don't let anyone break your heart now

I should have listened then

Right now it kills me to think about you

I wish that I didn't care

I tried my very best

But I can't seem to forget

Didn't know it would be this hard 'cause I know

I miss you now and I wish that you were still here, here

Can we go back and pretend we are just meeting?

I wish we could start over now

I wish I didn't love you, it'd be easier

I wish I hadn't turned that corner and seen what you had done

I wish I knew what I know now

'Cause if I had known I never would have let you go

Oh-ooh-oh-ooh

It's killing me to leave

But it'll hurt to stay

That's what I thought when I threw it all away

I know I wasn't perfect but I was trying, oh

Can we go back and pretend we are just meeting?

I wish we could start over now

I wish I didn't love you, it'd be easier

I wish I hadn't turned that corner and seen what you had done

I wish I knew what I know now

'Cause if I had known I never would have let you go

I wish I could take back everything that I said

I wish that I could forget about you in my head

I wish I knew what I know now

'Cause if I had known I never would have let you go

Oh-ooh-oh-ooh

Never let you go

Oh-ooh-oh-ooh

Never let you go

(I was now on the verge of tears, I was fighting so hard to not burst so that I could finish the song)

I wish I didn't love you, it'd be easier

I wish I hadn't turned that corner and seen what you had done

I wish I knew what I know now

'Cause if I had known I never would have let you go

Oh-ooh-oh-ooh

(I took one big shaky breath to hit the high note)

Never let you go

Oh-ooh-oh-ooh

(Nailed it)

Should've never let you go" 

I waited 5 seconds to fully let the song finish and then I collapsed onto the floor, taking my headphones off. I cried a little while and then I took three shaky breaths and put my headphones back on. The noise blasted in my ears so loud. The whole production crew was yelling and cheering for me.

I came out of the booth and they all played the song, it sounded AMAZING! Even the end, where I was crying. I was worried about it but they all said it made the song sound more real. They loved it so much that they sent me into hair and makeup and told me to do the song cover right then and there.

 I threw my hair into a high messy bun, threw some purple earrings, black top and jacket, purple pants and purple and black shoes on. We did a purple tinted smoky eye and sat me down in front of a purple and blue wall. Threw some purple lighting around and took a couple of pictures. 

I went to the bathroom and by the time I came back they had already made me a song cover and it looked AWESOME! I got one of my producers to send me the image and I posted it on my Instagram. We talked about a tour that I might have for my EVOLution album in a couple months and launched into planning that before I had to go.

That's the end of Chapter 17! Chapter 18 will be out tomorrow! Bye lovelies! xxx