I'm exhausted, I got home around twelve and I have to be in work by seven. I don't even want to go in because I didn't sleep for ages all I did was cry.
This is all my fault and I hate it.
I still love him, I really do but it hurts so much.
"Me and Trevor broke up" I sigh.
She rushes over to me "what oh my god are you okay".
"I guess" I shrug.
"Why are you even here? You just broke up" she questions.
"I don't think I'm aloud to have any days off" I sigh.
"Just say your grandmas past away she won't know" Nicole shrugs with a little laugh.
"I'm not saying my grandma dead" I shake my head.
"How come? She won't know" Nicole stands up.
"Because" I say.
"Do you want a hug?" She asks.
I nod and stand up and wrap my arms around her.
"I'm sorry I know how much you loved him" she muffles into my neck.
"Don't be it's fine" I sigh.
She goes back to her desk and I just finish my work that I've been told to do.
I don't know why it's just me that has to do all this work is stressful.
"Are hungry?" Nicole asks.
"No I'm fine thanks" I smile.
I feel like I'll go back into my depressive mode.
Not eating, not sleeping, doing stuff to myself or something even worse.
Trevor used to always message me asking if I've ate or how I was doing, he's just not going to do that.
"I don't really know about your guys relationship but maybe it's better since you guys are far away from each other and it might take the stress away from both of you" Nicole types on her computer.
"Maybe" I nod. It's Sunday tomorrow so I need to do errands and I'll chill.
"Just make sure your happy" She smiles.
"Yeah" I nod.
***
Sunday comes around slower since I had to stay at the office until 9:00pm and it took to long, I was so tired.
I wanted to sleep in but I have to get stuff done, I'm trying to do stuff to get my mind off of things.
I still think about him a lot but I'm trying to shake it off my mind.
I put my hair in a ponytail and changed my outfit and put some make up on.
I pick up my phone and phone Nicole.
"Hey" Nicole's voice beams through the phone.
"Hi" I put my phone on speaker.
"What's up?" She questions.
"Wanna come shopping?" I ask slipping my shoes on.
"Sure" she yawns.
"Are you ready?" I ask.
"Give me ten minutes" she sighs.
"Alright just message me" I tell her.
"I will" she says.
"See you soon" I say.
"Yeah see you soon" she hangs up.
