I stopped throwing up a two days ago and I told Trevor I finally got my period, which means I lied to him.
I keep looking down at the two lines on the test, currently freaking out.
I haven't told anyone yet, not even my mom I don't know if I want to.
I feel like I'm going to tell Alex first, but I'm just so scared what he'll think I'm only twenty four is that a good age?
I've never wanted to be an old mom, that sounds crazy because I'll be an old mom at some point but I don't want to be nearly fifty when my child is fourteen.
I've always wanted to be a mom it's my dream, I never cared about jobs all I wanted was to be a mom. I've always imagined what it would be like for me to have a baby and who I would have it with, and now I'm gonna have one with Trevor the man who I've loved since I was ten it sounds crazy that I loved him when I was ten but I really did.
I always wanted to build our house together.
Watch our kids grow up.
Us getting married.
I've only imagined him and only him.
My biggest fear was being infertile.
My phone rings snapping me out of my thoughts, Alex.
"Hey" I pick my phone up.
"Hey Ari how are you feeling? Trevor told me you had some bug" he questions.
"Yeah I'm doing good now" I say placing my phone down and putting my phone on speaker.
"That's good" he says "I was wondering if you wanted to go out for lunch?" Shit.
"Uhm" I walk around my room.
"I'll pay" he says.
"Alright I'll come" Ariella what are you doing?!
"Of course you come when I pay" he chuckles "would you like me to pick you up?".
"Yeah sure" I say "could we sit outside so I can bring Ivy?"
"Of course I miss her" Alex says.
"Alright good" I smile.
"I'll pick you up in ten" he says.
"What! No I'm still in my pjs" I groan.
"You have half an hour then" I can tell he rolled his eyes.
"I've got to get ready then! Bye!" I shout.
"Bye" he laughs.
"Can you hang up I'm at the other side of my room" I hear him laugh again then the phone cuts off.
I pick out black long sleeve top and jeans, placing it on my bed then going to my desk to get ready.
I curl the end of my hair loosely, doing my natural makeup.
My phone rings and I turn it over pausing my music looking to see that Trevor is calling.
"Hey gorgeous how are you?" I smile hearing his voice.
"I'm good how are you?" I ask putting my phone on speaker and finishing doing my eyebrows.
"I'm alright" he says "whatcha doing?".
"Just getting ready since me and Alex are going out for lunch" I stand up going to my bed.
"That's good" I hear him sitting down on his bed "do you want me to look after vy?".
"No it's okay I'm actually going to take her with me" I take my top off.
"Ah alright" he says "what are you doing? I hear so much wind noises"
I laugh "I'm putting a top on".
"Oo FaceTime me" I shake my head.
"Trevor no" I laugh.
"Damn worth a shot" he chuckles.
"Later maybe" I smirk.
"Oh definitely" his voice echos.
"I'm still so tired" I yawn.
"Then we can nap" I smile at the thought of that.
"Oh please" I nod.
"Alright" he says.
"Baby I'm gonna finish getting ready I'll see you later" I sip my jeans up.
"Alright pretty girl" I nearly fainted.
"Bye" I smile.
"Bye I love you".
"I love you".
I finish getting ready then Alex messages me that he is here so I put Ivy's leash on heading down the front on my building.
"Hey al" I hop in the car.
"Ivy!" He pets Ivy.
"Hello to you as well" I roll my eyes.
"Sorry Ari hi" he hugs me laughing "are you alright?".
"Yeah I'm fine why?" I question.
"Oh no you just look flustered" he starts the car.
"Oh I'm fine" I pet Ivy.
"Better not give me your bug" he drives off.
"I won't it's gone I haven't threw up for a couple of days" I say "but I'm starving because I haven't ate anything in days".
"In days!" He exclaimed "Ariella that's not good!".
"Yeah I know I've just been exhausted" I sigh.
"You still need to eat" he says.
"Yes I know!" I groan.
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"You've never got that before" Alex says "it looks disgusting are you even going to like it?".
"Yeah it looks good" I smile.
"It looks disgusting" I gag "see".
"Sorry I don't know why I just gaged" liar.
"Is it just cause you where sick what's up with you?" He asks.
