Stolen from me

In my eye sight

May 17th

Beyoncé
6:00

"What time will you be back?" I asked laying in bed still slightly falling off asleep. Shawn had a meeting with the song writers and agents about our tour that gonna be coming up in the next few years. He had to completely take over that while I was working on the renaissance album but ever since I finished it he been still working on it and I started to feel that's why he's stressed the way he is.

"Umm late this afternoon I know it won't be too long because I don't feel like being their long" i nodded my head with my eyes closed barley hearing what he was saying I heard him chuckle. " what you doing today?" I sat up and bit my lip some.

"Ummm" I broke into thought "I honestly don't know I might call the girls and go to mamas somethings up with her"

"She alright?" i shrugged slightly "I don't know she just seems off she keeps zoning out in moments and solo said she been crying" I snapped my head to him quickly "do you think something's wrong, like really really wrong?" I started to slightly panic he shook his head.

"No I think she just might have something going on but whatever it is it can be fixed she probably is just stressed and tired you Knowles woman seem to have that a lot" I chuckled as well as he did. "Yeah maybe your right" i laid back down sighing looking at the ceiling "we just gotta keep and eye on her" we went silent until he walked over to my Side of the bed standing hovering over me

"Ok I'll see you later" I nodded and he kissed my lips. "I love you" he pulled back I smiled "I love you too" he kissed my head and pulled back waking away grabbing his things

"I'll be home later on" he yelled out I have a quick ok and continued looking at the ceiling lost in my thoughts. What was really up with mama? The crying the zoning out she's barely talking and she's nonchalant lately. Then when we ask her she brushes it off of acts like nothing happened.

Then on top of that I've notice Amariana she just keeps getting smaller at this point her ribs are showing. Literally showing. Something up with her as well but it's only when it comes to food. I don't k or what's going on but my mother and my child are out of it. And now Shawn see-

"Beybey?" I turned my head seeing Amariana standing in the door way I sat up and got a full glimpse of her.
"Amariana" I said in a awe smiling slightly until she lifted her head and I saw tears in her eyes my face quickly formed a frown in confusion on why my child was crying.

"I-i had another nightmare" she cried i awed and patted the spot next to me she quickly ran and hopped on the bed I pulled her into my side and covered us up and laid back with her head in my chest and my arm around her stroking her out of her face since it was down. I felt her body tensed up and shaking in my arms. I kissed her head

"Relax baby, your ok and safe" I spoke softly I heard her taking a few deep breaths and her body began to lose tension as she took breath after breath.

"Bey?" Her soft voice trailed out with a slight of hoarseness from waking up. "Yes?" I asked with my eyes closed feeling my sleepiness kick in

"Have you ever felt this" she said referring to herself. " I mean like something happened and it just took over you and caused pain" I sat up some and cleared my throat

"Actually I have" I finally replied she looked up at me and I nodded "yeah, um when my father left your grandmother he left me and solo as well but for a moment he had a heart to come see us sometimes but one day he just stopped coming" I cleared my throat feeling the feeling I felt when he left us the way he did. "I was devastated I didn't know if we did something or if he just was over us" I felt tears slipping down my cheeks but I just let them.