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Prompt- can you do Liam's got anxiety and struggles with it because the meds he was taking didn't work and he's claustrophobic and it is worse with his anxiety and he gets anxiety attacks at least once a day and when he has anxiety attacks he can feel it coming and he always goes to Niall and when he is going through it he tends to pull harshly at his hair and scratches his arms sometimes if not stopped until they bleed and Niall is always there to hold and restrain him and so are the other boys when Liam goes through this and support him also anything can set him off he could be happy and smiling next minute he could be feeling it coming on but never too bad but when he's had a bad day they get really bad but Niall knows how to handle Liam and calm him down
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Liam's pov
We have just started out take me home tour. It is about 3am. We are really busy today. I can start to feel an anxiety attack coming on. I carefully get out of my bed and walk over to Niall's bed and I shake him. Niall wakes up and says "Li is that you?" I nod and say "Uh huh" I absentmindedly start scratching at my arms looking at Niall.
Niall's pov
I get woken up by Liam looking very anxious. He starts to scratch as his arms. I pull him to lay down with me. I pull his arms apart and hold him whispering calming words to him. He soon curls up and rests his head over my heart and starts to fall asleep. I gently smooth his hair and soon he is asleep. I smile and continue to hold him and stroke his hair until I fall asleep myself.
The next morning I get woken up by a flash and a whisper shout from Harry "Louis you left your flash on. You could have woken them." Louis then says "Well I didn't." I open my eyes and say "It woke me up" Louis asks "Is Li alright?" I nod and say "He was a bit anxious last night. He woke me up and then he fell asleep like this." Harry nods and says "At least he didn't hurt himself too much." I nod and say "He did start to scratch himself but I managed to get him to stop quite quickly" the others nods and Harry says "That's good that you managed to stop him quite quickly." I nod and look down at Liam and smile. I then ask "What do we have today?" Louis responds "We have 3 radio interviews and a TV interview, a meet and greet, a rehearsal and then a concert tonight." I nod and say "I'll get Liam up then. Is someone alright to wake Zayn up please." Louis says "I'll do it and Harry are you alright to make breakfast?" Harry nods and leaves the bunk area. Louis walks over to Zayn's bunk.
I gently rub Liam's back and say "Li love, wake up" Liam turns away and I say "I know love. You need to wake up though" Liam groans but opens his eyes I say "'Morning babe." Liam whines and cuddles into me. I say "You are really not a morning person are you Li." Liam shakes his head and buries his face in my chest. I say "Let's go and take your medication Li." I feel Liam nod against me. I sit up with Liam and he leans his head on my shoulder. I help him out of the bunk and lead him to the main area of the bus.
I sit Liam on the sofa and then go to get Liam's medication and a glass of water. I walk back to Liam and see him starting to scratch his arms staring blankly into space. I walk over to him and pull his arms apart. I then sit on the sofa next to him and pull him to my chest making sure he can't scratch his arms. Soon he looks up at me and I say "Here babe. Have this." Liam nods and sits up slightly. He takes the medication then cuddles into me again. I gently rub Liam's stomach. I smile down at Liam and ask "You feeling better now?" Liam shrugs and just cuddles into me more.
About five minutes later Harry comes into the main area of the bus and says "Breakfast is ready. How's Li doing" I respond "He started scratching his arms when I went to go and get his medication. He seems alright at the moment though." Harry nods as Zayn and Louis walks out of the bunk room. Harry says "Just in time for breakfast." Louis nods and Zayn and Louis walks into the kitchen. Harry follows them and I say to Liam "Come on love. Let's go and have some breakfast." Liam nods and I help him up. We walk to the kitchen area and we sit next to each other. I put some food on my plate then put some food on Liam's plate. We all but Liam start eating. I look over at Liam and say "Li babe. You need to eat something." Liam looks over at me and shakes his head and says "I'm not hungry." I say "I know love but you need your energy for today." Liam nods and slowly starts to eat. He eats about half before he starts pushing his food around on the plate. I ask him "Have you finished babe?" Liam nods and looks at me.
Halfway through the last interview of the day still Niall's pov
Today has been awful so far. We have already had our meet and greet luckily that went alright. Liam has been really anxious though. He has had a few anxiety attacks which only I can calm him down properly from. We are currently halfway through the last interview. I have been told I am not allowed to sit next to Liam as the fans are getting suspicious. I have been keeping half an eye on Liam as I am really worried about him. He looks very anxious. He keeps on glancing over at me. I try to give him a reassuring smile but he is looking really anxious.
At the end of the interview still Niall's pov
We all go backstage and Liam instantly starts absentmindedly scratching at his arms. I pull him to the sofa and I hold his arms apart and whisper comforting words to him making sure he is resting his head over my heart as that calms him down. He slowly calms down and he looks up at me and says "I'm sorry." I say "You don't need to be sorry baby. Let's go and get this rehearsal and concert done then we can go to bed and hopefully tomorrow will be a better day." Liam nods. I smile at him and he tries to smile back.
Half way through the concert Liam's pov
My anxiety has been really bad today. We are currently half way through the concert which is luckily the last thing we have got today. I just wanna cuddle with Niall in bed. I look out into the crowd and spot a sign that says 'I love you the real one direction boys Niall, Louis and Zayn.' With a picture of me cropped out. I reread the sign a few times before I realise I am definitely not mentioned. I look at the stage and I feel my breathing picking up. I feel Niall's eyes on me and I look over towards him. He slowly walks over to me and he whispers in my ear making sure both our mics don't pick it up "You alright babe?" I nod and look back out at the sign. Niall follows my eyes and he pushes me along slightly and says angrily "That sign is not true and you know it" I shrug and look down. I feel Niall rub my back and he sighs and says "We will talk later" I nod and we continue the concert.
Niall's pov
At the end of the concert we all rush off stage. Liam has been out of it for the rest of the concert. I lead him to our dressing room as Liam starts to pull his hair. I pull him down to sit on the sofa. I gently try to take his hands out of his hair and he pulls out some of his hair. I then hold his arms to his side and whisper soothing words to him as he starts sobbing. He soon calms and says "I should leave. I mess everything up with my anxiety." I gently lift up his head so he is looking me straight into my eyes and I say "No Liam. That sign was horrible to you. We would be no where without you." Liam goes to say something but I say "No Liam. I know what you are going to say. We have this conversation at least once a month. We are not abandoning you or letting you leave" Liam's eyes well up with tears again and he buries his face in my chest sobbing again. I gently rub his back and I whisper comforting words to him. Soon he sobs himself to sleep. I smile and gently pick him up and carry him to the van.
A few weeks later no one's pov
Niall helped Liam through his anxiety and helped him on bad days.
