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hyeongjun's diary : entry three

dear diary,

how do you help someone?

that's the question i've been asking myself a lot more often lately. jiseok isn't getting better any time soon, but he's surprisingly good at covering it up. so, what should i do?

i mean, i suppose therapy could be an option, but i don't want him knowing that i know about his cutting problems. i dunno, it might ruin our friendship. i want to help him, but i don't have a single clue how to.

i'm really worried about jiseok tho. he hasn't showed up to school in like.. three days. what if he's dead? he can't be, right? do i just go to his house? knock and see if he opens the door? what do i do?

man, should i just tell him? just straight up? or do i need to keep slowly hinting at the fact that i know about them? this cat and mouse game or whatever is really starting to bug me.... but i want to keep him safe, that's really the only thing keeping me from not telling him.

i hate seeing him constantly sweating in the hot weather tho... but i know what happens when i try to take off his jacket. maybe i could get him a gift for those... arm warmer things? or like those cuffs or whatever? idk what they're called, but maybe i can get him some so he can wear shorter sleeves.

is what i would want to get him if he didn't wear turtlenecks all the damn time. i have no clue what's happening there, but oh my god am i worried for him.