잠꼬대 (zzz..)

o.sm

another day of school means another day of asking if jungsu is okay. i really haven't been able to look at him the same ever since last weekend. i knew something was wrong at home, but not "failed abortion" wrong.

i guess i was right to have sneaky suspicions about his mom. i hate her to death now. how could you call your kid that so casually? some people were ACTUAL failed abortions and are glad to be alive. do you know how much that could hurt someone? lots. and i had to witness it first-hand. it was terrible.

all i wanted to do in that moment was just break through the window and give him a hug. he really needs one. but i couldn't. i don't want him knowing that i know what he's going through. he might end up avoiding me, but i'm not sure. i don't have any classes with jungsu, so i'm constantly worried about him throughout the day.

as i walked into my history class, i saw junhan. i met him--and jooyeon-- last week, and he's pretty cool. he plays guitar, and has been for a long time. when i waved to him, i saw another boy sitting next to him. he was wearing a sweater. it's still hot outside, how is he not suffering?

i sat down next to them and introduced myself. i found out the other boy's name was gaon, or jiseok. he said he didn't mind either one. i like jiseok more though, so i'll use that. i asked him about his sweater, but he said he was cold...? 

seriously...? cold? in this weather? it's so hot outside, barely anyone is in long sleeves, even the teachers. something is definitely wrong, but i won't say anything. i'll just ask junhan after school or something.

during the period, i spent some time talking to junhan. jiseok looked like he was zoning out, but junhan snapped him out of his.. trance, or something. he mentioned food! i love food! i'm a foodie myself, maybe i can talk to him about that too!

"you are?! i am too!" i excitedly told him.
"yeah..! i like mostly desserts, what about you?" jiseok said back.
"ooo, savory foods are my favorite. but you can never go wrong with traditional korean food."
"ahh, i agree. you can never go wrong with something from your roots."

maybe this guy isn't hiding anything after all, he seems pretty chill, and is a foodie! or he is  hiding something... i don't know. i'll ask junhan after school.

at least i got his number, so i can talk to him about all my meals and stuff every day. i'm excited. high school is really tough right now, but there's always those little good things that happen. like making new friends, for example.