잠꼬대 (zzz..)

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"well... okay.. jiseok. what's been up with him lately? i haven't seen him in school, now that i think about it.. just on flatform. it's worrying, honestly.." i say, scratching my chin. 

yeah.. what happened to him? i haven't seen him since last week. what's he doing?

"that's the question we'd hope you'd have an answer to. yeah, i know, you should be asking me, but i'm worried for him. last time i saw him here was last week. he's... yeah, only on flatform. one of the last things i said to him was to lower his screentime on it too.." junhan said.

damn, i can't help but feel bad for him. the two have been through shit, especially gaon. i remember junhan telling me about his self-harm issues, and jesus christ... since middle school? how he hasn't been to a mental hospital or a therapy session, i'll never know. what i do know is that SOMETHING is wrong with him, and i'm not sure how to fix it.

"uh, i mean, it's friday. why don't we stop by at his place and see how he's doing? i'm sure you know where he lives, right, hyeongjun?" jooyeon asked. and now that i think about it, we've never hung out before. well, other than flatform, but that's different.

"yep, of course i know. my parents won't mind if i stop by, it's jiseok after all. i'm not sure about yours though.." junhan said.

"we'll be fine! we can just say that we had to stay back to do some work for a teacher." jooyeon replied. "even if i say i went over to someone else's, they'll just assume it's one of the guys i'm on flatform with, don't worry about it." i said. 

my parents really don't mind, they've said they want me hanging out with some other people, so.. i'll take any opportunity i can get to get closer to the guys.

"oh, perfect! well, his house is walking distance from here if we take a shortcut. just follow me."

and off we went, to jiseok's house!

♪

honestly, walking around a different part of town was really nice. the area that junhan and jiseok live in is surprisingly... regal, i must say! i do admit, i'm slightly jealous... but now isn't the time to be thinking about that. it's "jiseok" hours.

while we walked, it was mostly junhan telling us about the people that live there. they're all really nice, from what it seems. one family likes to have a neighborhood barbeque every few weeks during the summer time, a lot of the kids like to have snowball fights during winter... it's like the whole place is one big family. i wonder how that must feel... no wonder why junhan is such a nice person. he was raised around good people. 

we started approaching a certain house, it was white with brown and green accents, with some beautiful chrysanthemums planted on the porch. it was really nice, just like all the other houses in the neighborhood. 

"so, is this jiseok's house? it looks really.. comfy, if that's the right word." jooyeon said, staring at it in awe, just like he did while looking at the plants. 

"yep, this is his place. it's really nice. they don't usually have these chrysanthemums on the porch though... they usually have hydrangeas in a variety of colors. not just... white chrysanthemums." junhan replied, seeming really skeptical about the sudden change. "i swear they were hydrangeas just this weekend..." he continued.

now i'm even more confused...