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it's monday. again...

as i walked into school, i saw jiseok and junhan standing together, talking about.. something. i can't really tell, i'm too far away from them. it seems like jooyeon and jungsu made up too, they're talking to each other not looking like they want to fight. or maybe it's because they're in front of everyone? still, i think they've made up.

i went over to them just to see what was happening, and i... was right? they made up! somehow.. i don't know how, but they made up! that's the point, and i'm happy about it.

"oh, seungmin! what's up man? had a good weekend?"  was the first thing jungsu said to me. it was... off - putting. like, really off - putting? he's never  said that to me.... maybe i'm just overthinking it, right?

"ah, ya know.. the usual. just did homework, hit the court for a bit, helped my parents around the house. the usual. ... how was yours?" i replied back. i didn't do any of that, but... had to fill the silence somehow. i mean, i guess i did, but i didn't "hit the court." i don't even play basketball?!

"ohhh, great, great! yeah, i just did some work... flatform, y'know. that's kind of it." jungsu said to me. it was... oddly... no, not oddly.. it was a lie. i don't think he's lying about making up with jooyeon, which he didn't even imply and my guess could be wrong, but i think something to do with his mom.... again.

i didn't want to leave out jooyeon, so i just greeted him too. the three of us ended up talking until the bell, and i had my lit class with jiseok.

jiseok is a good guy, i think? i mean, he's gone really quiet recently, but i think he might be starting to open up again... maybe. he only really talks a lot when hyeongjun is around. but i get it, they've known each other for a long time, and he probably isn't used to new people. i get to talk about food with him though, that's fun! we just talk and talk, get yelled at a few times... and keep talking, and get yelled at again, and then we stop. 

it'd be nicer if we could just talk, i want to learn more about him, but i don't have his number, nor are we in any clubs... speaking of clubs, is he in any? i don't think so... i don't remember him saying anything. i'll just take this chance and ask him..

"oh, jiseok, i keep forgetting to ask... but, are you in any clubs?" i asked, hoping for a response. "clubs? oh, uh, no, i'm not.. sorry.." he said, it made me feel bad.. did he think that he would be judged? "no need to apologize, you aren't the only one. it's not like you need to be in one anyways. people won't judge you."

hm, he's not in any clubs, so what does he do after school? other than... flatform.. at least.