It's Called Beauty

Chapter Twenty-Five

Have you ever felt like no one understood you? I sat in front of my mirror looking at my pale body. My eyes had bags under them, I felt gross all over again. I've thrown up at least three times since I first threw up, which in total I've thrown up four times. My once twinkling eyes, filled with love and hope, were fading drastically, which I hated to admit this so much. I think that I've at least lost around 50 pounds, I'm not even sure that's normal. I put my hand on the outline of the bottom of my shirt feeling the thickness of the cotton and I pulled it up revealing my skinny stomach. It was so flat and not in a normal way either. I knew there's only two weeks left til christmas which is why my body looks so bad.

I might only have one week left, I might only have two weeks left, I don't know yet, but all I really know right now is that I want to spend my life to the fullest, i wanted to be able to live it out happy before i finally leave this world for good. Honestly my life already has been to the fullest, it's been amazing. If reincarnation is a real thing I would love to come back as Jack's wife in another life. I finally released my shirt down feeling the fabric as it rubbed my skin, slightly irritating my skin as it fell back down. My black shirt made it hot from the color, but i was just freezing before so i didn't really care right now. I dreaded the day when I would finally pass leaving Jack and my whole family behind, especially Maya, i would miss my best friend so much.

On the bright side though, at least maya likes jack it would be so awful if they didn't get along. I loved his relationship with her so much. I also think that his family likes me too. God i loved his family they were so beautiful and happy even that teenager with her long eyelashes who slightly scared me. I'm still not even sure why i was scared in the first place about meeting his family, i'm not even sure about anything right now, except for one thing and one thing only.. I loved him. A sudden slight sound of someone knocking on the door caused me to turn my head and look at my door. The knock sounded soft, like the hands of a teenager but i didn't put much thought into it.

"Who is it"

It was loud enough it was almost a yell but not quite there. I was still standing in front of my body mirror, the frame was blue and had a bit of cracks in it as it was still usable. There was a dreamcatcher hanging from the top of that thing, my baby brother bought it for me before he died, si. I remember when he finally made enough ,oney in his piggy bank to buy it for me, he had the biggest smile on his baby face, he was so excited. He died when he was just four. Since then I had never taken it down, I think it's too sentimental. I guess there's only one bright side to this whole me dying thing, I finally get to be with my baby brother Max. The door opened making a slight creaking sound, someone really needs to put oil on that thing. I expected Maya, but Jack's head peaked around the corner looking at me with a huge grin on his face making his eyes do a curved eye thing smiling along with his lips.

"I have an idea"

He opened the door completely with his left hand so he could get in. He had on this gray knitted hoodie that he loved so much. He had one of his hands behind his back, he pulled his hand out slowly revealing a thick dvd case. He was so excited it was the cutest thing. He put it up to me so I could read it. He had such a huge smile on his face as he looked proud. I couldn't help but laugh at his proud face. The DVD said "Home Alone Bundle Pack, All Five Movies' ' I guess he really liked home alone then. He didn't even care how I looked, he just seemed to care about me which is why I loved him so much.

"We could have.. A christmas movie marathon"

Hey emphasized the marathon part as he spoke with complete and full excitement in his tone. This guy was too excited to watch a movie with me. He leaned in and looked down at me with awe in his eyes.

"What? Is there something on my face?"

I asked but he just scoffed and placed a tiny kiss on my nose.

"Yes.. it's called beauty"

I couldn't help but cringe at how corny that was, but I loved him so I let this one slide, just this once.

"So you? Wanna watch a movie with me?.. I look gross"

He put his right finger on my chin, warm and spontaneous and he looked down at me with this look in his eyes.

"You are never gross, you will never be"

He held onto the dvd case in his left hand, clutching it in a way. He placed a small peck on my lips sending a bolt of energy throughout my body which I was so in love with.

"So, movie or now?"

He furrowed his thick brown eyebrows looking as our faces were inches apart after the kiss. His right pointer finger was still on my hand

"Hmm.. let me thing"

I laughed as I placed another kiss on his lips so happy to feel our lips interlocking once more. I could kiss this guy forever, I could be in this moment forever.

"I think, yeah"

"Well great, cause we are about to have an extremely long night, so buckle up buttercup"

"Buttercup"

"Yeah, i knew it sounded weird when i said it"

He scoffed at me as he sat down on the edge of my bed not erasing his smile. I stayed in the same spot watching him as he looked so happy. The sad thing is that all of that happiness was going to disappear in two weeks. Then he wouldn't be happy anymore, none of them would be happy anymore. He opened the case making a clicking sound as it popped open. The first DVD read just as "Home Alone 1" in skinny red letters across the DVD. My house was already decorated for Christmas. My mom and dad did all of the rooms when we were at school. They have this ritual where they put a medium size white Christmas tree in my room. Not a tall normal one, but not a desk table one either.