Divergent University {Sequel}

Chapter 8~ Two Lit Candles and A Whole Bunch of Dreams

Tobias POV
The only light in the room is from the flickering of the two candles we have lit, and the glow of the TV. And the occasionally crack of lightening. It's a stormy evening, one of those awful and destructive summer storms. The one with roaring thunder and bright light from snapping lighting.

Tris has always hated these storms, me not so much. I always enjoyed when it stormed, because I imagined myself being swept away with the wind. Taking me far away from my life of pain and suffering. I hoped that the rain would wash away my scars and my pain. I don't think that way anymore, but they still give me a weird sense of comfort.

Tris is spooked easily, so these are hard for her. That's why you have to keep her mind off them, which is what we're doing now. We're snuggled in bed, Tris wearing white lacy underwear and one of my sweatshirt that goes mid thigh on her. While I'm just in boxers. We have the covers pulled over us, and my arms wrapped around her- protecting her.

"What was that?

"The weather - Pbbbah! Very peculiar. Don't you think"

"Yeah. Looks like the winds are changing. "

" Ahhh. Change is good. "

We've already watched The Jungle Book and The Little Mermaid. Now we're onto the Lion King, which is one of my favorites I'll have to admit. It's one I find some good advice in, one that I'd watch when I was a child.

"I know what I have to do. But going back means I'll have to face my past. I've been running from it for so long. "

"Ow! Jeez, what was that for?"

" It doesn't matter. It's in the past. "

"Yeah, but it still hurts. "

"Oh yes, the past can hurt. But from the way I see it, you can either run from it, or... learn from it. "

The movies a big impact maybe because it has to do so much with the past. Simba wants to move forward, never having to look back on his past. But you can't.

Your past will always be with you, no matter how much you wish it wasn't. I connect that way, I want to forget mine. The pain and memories, but I can't move forward without accepting the past. Embracing it.

"Listen, you think you can just show up and tell me how to live my life? You don't even know what I've been through! "

" I would if you just tell me! "

"Forget it! "

"Fine!"

And I still haven't fully been able to do that. "Hey. You okay?" I hear Tris's voice enter my mind. I look down at her, and give a reassuring smile.

"I'm fine." I lie, but try my best to get her to buy it. I hate burdening her with my past.

"Alright." She says and I know she's still suspicious.

She moves to take the movie out, and place a new one in. The Beauty and The Beast.

"I like this one." She tells me and leans back into me. I play with strands of her hair, running my fingers through it.

I can't focus on the screen or the movie playing, my minds too occupied. I guess it's not just about my past and what happened in my childhood. But about my future as well.

I have no plans, no ideas of what it'll be like. The only thing I now that I will have is Tris. But still that may not be certain- or as certain as I thought it was.

"Seriously. What's up?" Tris asks, the movie paused and she moved so she's able to look at me better.

I sigh, not knowing what to tell her or how. I don't even know all of what's floating through my mind, so how would I be able to put that in words for someone else.

"I guess I'm just thinking about my life." I tell her, simplifying it to something simple to say.

"What about life?" "Everything about it." I tell her.

She kisses my cheek, "Don't stress about things that don't need stressing." Tris tells me.

I smile a small smile, then kiss her cheek. I pull her back into my arms and she presses a hand to my chest. Sending goose bumps over my body, with the sudden feeling on my bare skin.

Don't stress about things that don't need stressing.

(A/N: Hey guys. My chapters are just not where I want them to be. I mean, I just feel that they haven't been great. Hopefully when they get to college, chapters will get better. Sorry that they've sucked lately. )