[BEING REMASTERED]The Curiosity Prophesy(An HnKnA Fanfiction)

My Life Story

It's not very happy
But if you want to read it
Go ahead

From 1-5 I was happy and I loved being alive
I was always happy
And ate donuts for breakfast
But
When I was six
My parents divorced
My dad(who's a jazz piano player) left me for traveling with his band and jazz music
I didn't realize how sad I was
I no longer see him much
He's never home
Even though I always remember his birthday
I send him a card
But never get a reply
My mom and her new fiancé and me moved far away
In second grade
I learned how to fake a smile
And lie about how I felt
Until a girl at my new school came up to me and asked if I wanted to be her friend. She introduced me to her best friend and my future crush/boyfriend I dated in third grade.
Her name was Jaylene.
His was Alan.
I was happy that year and the worst thing I ever did was sneak Pokemon cards out at recess.
Just recently I came back to where we used to live and talked to Jaylene to find out that Alan had changed
He's now obsessed with himself, a popular kid, that one guy that everyone knows is a player but all the girls still love him.
Meanwhile
After second grade
My mom(who's a jazz singer) got remarried to her fiancé(who's a jazz trumpet player)
And I went to another new school
Were I learned to listen to my teacher and I would get a good grade
Because I also learned that you always have to smile
If you frown, people will ask you what's wrong.
But I didn't know what was wrong.
So I couldn't tell them I was sad, because if you don't have a reason they'll say you're stupid and get back to life
But I kept talking with Jaylene
And I really smiled when I was with her
And at the time, Alan
I started to hate my life
But I never figured out why I was so sad.
So I couldn't tell anyone
I would go into random bouts of uncontrollable crying
And I would lock myself into my room
Until I finished and checked my homework and did the extra credit and I was out of tears
In the last part of fifth grade
I got a pet kitten for my birthday that I had been wanting my whole life
Her name was Athena
And she was beautiful at two months when I got her
But then I found out that we were moving back where we had been before
Away from the friends I had made
We moved, and I was sent to another new school
I had some hope that maybe I would feel better
But things only got worse because I don't make friends... It's just hard for me.
Athena was a smart cat and she was just almost one year old
She knew I was sad and would come sit by me when I locked myself in the bathroom and didn't come out until my parents were yelling
But it turned out Athena had a fatal sickness since her birth
And was going to die in a month or two
I started to get in trouble for crying
And took trouble and problems with an "I'm okay, it's okay, and everything will be okay"
I repeated it to myself constantly
I knew it wasn't healthy for me
But not feeling and staying more stoic helped me,
Even though it brought my grade crashing down
Because I stopped turning in my homework.
I collected it in a shoebox under my bed For some reason(I just do weird stuff)
I made a few friends, but I couldn't really be happy without some kind of help
On a visit to Jaylenes house,
I tried to kill myself by overdosing on strong medicines and pills
Inside I knew that I couldn't do it. I was too scared.
But I tried
And Jaylene caught me before I could get more than two down
She told me that she wouldn't stop me if I wanted to kill myself
But she didn't want me to commit suicide until I had experienced more of life.
That maybe I would find something that would fix my problems
So I stopped and told her maybe she was right
And we played super smash bros for the next 17 hours
Then we had an anime marathon
And I told her that I wouldn't kill myself
Until she wasn't my friend
Jaylene told me then I wouldn't have to worry because no matter what would happen she would be my friend
I started to write, an easy way to slip out of my own shoes for even just a minute and be in the story for just even a minute.
It became sort of drug-like, and I wanted to write
Every moment of the day
But my parents didn't want me on the sites where I could write and share it
So I did it behind their back
I didn't care about getting in trouble anymore
It made me feel better so that I could ask almost normal in public
Finally my parents found out
And they were mad
But I really didn't care
It just didn't matter
I couldn't tell them I was sad
But my parents weren't stupid, no matter how overprotective to the extreme they might be
They knew something was wrong
And they hadn't been ignoring everything
So they finally let me write
And I'm writing

But I was thinking last night
And
Writing is a distraction
I still don't know what's wrong with me
But I'm sure I was a mistake
Because everything I love eventually goes down the drain

And that's my life
This is all true
I've never shared it with anyone before
But I felt like I should've
So I did
Thank you
For reading this story
The twisted reality that lets me breathe a little
And now you know why I'm writing it
And what's behind the smile and crappy humor
That makes up me