After this life (completed) *editing*

chapter 28

"just until midnight Claire, im sorry, until midnight to say your last farewell" his word were on my head 

-aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!! 

-shhhhhhh shhhhhhhhh, everything is alright Claire, it was just a dream, im here love, dont be scared we are togheter, it was just a bad dream- Niall was rubbing my back in circles while i cried. That hadnt been a dream, it had been real, and i knew now i just had one day with the lads.- come here babe, tell me about your nightmeare, when i was little my mum always made me tell her my dreams so i wouldnt be scare of them anymore, and it always worked, tell me sweetheart what was it? 

-ni, it wasnt a dream- i sobbed  

-what you mean babe? 

-it was real, i went to him, he told me, he- i couldnt stop the tears and i couldnt finish my sentence 

-shhhh, tell me babe, what did he said- i looked up at him, he was worried, he might have a feeling a hint of what it had been 

-we have to call the lads- i whispered- i have until midnight- i cried on his shirt, i now understood cinderella, midnight was too soon, i wanted to spend every second left with the lads and my perfect irish boyfriend 

-no no no, it had to be a dream, you cant leave me, not now! not ever! please claire tell me it was a dream- i just keep crying soaking his shirt while he hugged me tigh, but what hurted the most was that he was crying too. I kissed his cheek, his eyes were red and puffy  

-i dont wanna go- i said he nodded and pulled me even closer, i was sitting between his legs, laying on his chest while his hands were around me and i played with his fingers 

-i love you claire, i love you so freaking much- he said with a tear i took it out with my lips 

-i love you too nialler, but dont cry- it took all my strenght to say my next words- we knew this had to come some day 

-but why that day had to arrive so soon- he said crying again- i wanted to introduce you to my mum, and my brother, i wanted to take you with me on tour and sing for you on stage, i wanted to buy you things and cook for you, i wanted to have so many pictures with you that i could have a book, to make you a birthday party, to live just with you, to give you surprises and take you to dates, my fans to meet you, they to give us a ship name, to fight with you with kisses and to make you laugh, i wanted to be your first time, i wanted...- he couldnt finish i pasted my lips to his my hands finding its way to the back of his neck and his to my waist 

-dont make this more difficult baby- i whispered- if it was for me i would never leave you, because i wanted you to be at my side for ever- i kissed him again and played with his hair and then took all his tears away with soft kisses, he sighed my touches calming him down-niall?- i said after a moment 

-yes?- he answered the sadness on his voice still present 

-we still hmm.. ya know- i mumbled 

-what do you want baby?- his concerned eyes were on my face i looked at my hands 

-i want you to be my first time too- i whispered blushing as never before- and we are alone so...- i couldnt finish too ashamed of asking it, he stared at me for a second before kissing me with much more heat than the last one, soon enough his hands were on my shirt pulling it out of ny body, i didnt complained, it was what i wanted 

-are you sure?- he asked both our chests bare 

-yes- i whispered he smiled sweetly at me kissing me again before taking out our remaining clothes

-are you sure you are ready?- he asked worried for me, i nodded 

- i love you niall- he grinned 

- i love you too 

And after saying those words some people is so afraid to admit we became one for the first time.

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extremly short chapter but at least im not on authors block anymore so this chapter is the actual reason why this story is PG-13 rated to be careful of what you read if you arent old enough, ok i felt like my mum, anyways whos happy im back?? yaaay!!! i'll try to upload soon while then mind checking my other stories??

love you all Xxx

29/june/2013

ps= i promise next one will be longer