LIVE IN YOUR BREATH ( slowly editing )

PART 4 : Going home

Part 4 : Going home

A week passed by quickly. Now I can move my leg, although I'm still learning to walk and it feels a bit stiff. But I can move my body with a stick. Yeah, not good, but they said, if I continue with therapy, I can walk without the stick in less than 2 months, according my age. That's not bad though. The car hit me so hard, no wonder all my body was broken. I am sitting on a couch, watching movies Ty brought me a few days ago. While Josh sleeps in my lap. He has a thick eyebrow, white skin, full lips. I never imagine that one day this player can sleep in my lap. I smile while staring at him.

I don't really understand about my feeling towards him, but while I am in hospital, he is very kind to me. And I think, I still have some feeling for him. Ok, I know, this might be wrong, but... I don't know.

I murmured in his ear, "I love you, Josh" then I smile. He is still sleeping. So I guess, he didn't hear anything. Yes, I decided that I will continue to love this guy, no matter what. If he still playing, then I will just leave him, I guess. 

I haven't found any clue again about my past. I just add 'CLAY' and 'Question with the question'. But I continue to enjoy my life. I start to bore in a hospital. I really hope I can leave this hospital soon. As I know, my condition is going better. Still need pain killer in the night, so I can sleep comfortably.

"Could you please speak again, princess.." He touches my lips

"Ha-ha... you heard that, darling. I won't say it anymore..." he abruptly stands up and take me to his arm. I smile when he tickles me. "AH, stop it, Josh. It is hurt.... You know.."

"Ouch, sorry, princess... which part is hurt?" he asked panicked

I smile, touch my heart and said "Here, Josh, because I love you.. It is hurt to see you with another girl..."

He hugs me, kisses my cheek, and said "I try my best, ok? Although I cannot promise too much. It is my nature.. But I will try my best not to hurt you, ok, princess?"

He is romantic. I have finally fallen for him, again, for the second time. Although for now, I am not breaking my heart. At least I haven't. Yeah, that's not a positive thinking, but, Josh is a famous player in our school. Already many girls broke their heart because he left them. And , I may become one of them, later. But I don't care. I forgot the past, so I will try to enjoy the good thing happened for me.

Josh is staying in hospital after school, until late night. If nobody stays with me, he will stay with me. His only out for having some lunch or dinner. I am happy for a while. It may be like dreams come true. At least that's what I heard from Brie. She told me I was imagining having a boyfriend like Josh. That was 3 years ago. He is perfect. He is a soccer captain. I am lucky to know him, just because I am his friend's sister.

Today is a good day for me. Doctor said I can go home tomorrow, after I do my therapy. But of course I have to continue therapy even after go home. Ty will pick me up tomorrow. And now Josh will help me pack my stuff to prepare for tomorrow. Ah, I am really happy, waiting to go home. I want to see my home, my bedroom, is it the same as I imagined, based on my parents' story?

But still, it feels weird. Hospital now already like a home for me, which I already know almost every important room. But, going home, is a place which I don't recognize anymore. I will never know where to get some drink, or snack, or where to get the DVD for watching. I don't even know what kind of clothes I had, what is the arrangement of my wardrobe, my cabinet. I don't know where I put my thing, even I don't have any idea what kind of thing did I have. And every thought if that, makes me more depressed.

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