LIVE IN YOUR BREATH ( slowly editing )

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"Dammit, Brie..." I cried.

"Shush, Kay, Don't worry. You can just tell him, ok? I believe he is a good guy." She hugs me.

1 hours before

"Are you really that sick, Kay?"Brie asked me worried, seeing me vomit few times this week.

"Did you get some medicine?"

I shook my head.

"Do you want to go to the doctor, Kay?"

I shook my head.

"What's wrong? Something bothering you?"

I don't know how to tell her. "I haven't got my period yet, Brie."

"Shit. Seriously Kay? Did you use any protection?"

I shook my head again. And suddenly I feel guilty. I was so reckless. I never think this could happen.

"Come on, it's ok. Buy some test pack, Kay. No matter what the result is, you need to confirm it. Or do you want me to buy it right now? Give me 15 minutes. I'll buy it in minimarket. Just wait. It is still morning. It won't take me long." She stood up and get my car key.

15 minutes after, I quickly pee and use the test pack Brie gave me. I feel the time passes really long, although it is only 2 minutes. I'm waiting for the result. Slowly, the line appears..

"How is it, Kayla?" She knocked the bathroom door.

I keep silent.

"Kayla, let me in, alright?" She knocked again 2 times before she finally get in the bathroom.

"Brie.. how can I be so reckless... how can I be so stupid..."

Present

"Kayla, tell him, ok?" She hugs me tight.

"How if he doesn't want this kid, Brie? How am I suppose to do? And we are still young, Brie."

"Do you love him, Kayla?" I nodded.

"Do you believe him?"

"I don't know, Brie. I think I am."

"Be brave, Kayla. Tell him. Well, the worst case, Kayla. If, he doesn't want this baby, it means he doesn't love you, got it?"

Everything Brie said makes sense. But I don't think I can go through it, if Clay doesn't want this baby.

"Ok, Brie, I'll tell him"

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Clay...

That is all I typed. He is back to his country already. My mom still can't accept Clay. She threaten me to get out from house if O continue my relationship with Clay. Now, what should I do? I have his baby. My tears came down to my cheeks.

I checked my phone again and there is no reply. I decided to text him again.

Clay, I need to talk to you about important matter.

Took him almost 2 hours to reply.

Yeap, Kay, what is it?

Can I call you?

Nope, Kay, I'm in class. What is it? What hapenned?

I don't think it is good enough to talk about this important thing in message, but, I think I should tell him right now.

Clay, what do you think of a baby?

Seriously, Kay? You wanna call me just to talk about this?

I'm serious, Clay

Dear, you know that I'm not a good father. And I haven't think about that thing. Why now? I mean, why you talk about this thing just now?
I want to cry reading his message. He doesn't want this kid. Quickly, i clicked log off in my messanger and turn off my phone. I will think another way. I will never kill this baby. Ever. Although I know my mom will really get me out.

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