Louis Tomlinson Sickfics

Major Insecurities

Louis' POV

We were just in an interview for a celebrity news and we were asked a very personal kind of question I think...

'What is your favourite thing about other members?'

Liam began,

Niall: loud, funny and hungry.
Harry: charming, kind, friendly.
Louis: annoying, laid back, different.

Different? Annoying? Okay thanks Liam. I knew I was annoying but what do you mean different? I know I'm different than rest of the boys, I'm fat, ugly and sing different.

Next was Niall.

Harry: nice, cool
Liam: amazing friend, pretty nice
Louis: partner in crime, funny

Okay so his was nicer.

Next me.

Niall: funny, loud and farts a lot.
Liam: annoying, mean sometimes and nice others.
Harry: charming, amazing and nice to talk to.

Harry began,

Liam: funny, nice and cool
Niall: hilarious, loud and lifts the mood
Louis: I guess Louis can be loud and spontaneous.

My heart sank.

"Just flattered by compliments there," I whispered.

The interviewer spoke up, who has the best body in the band and who would you date?

We were still secret, I wish we weren't.

Niall said he'd choose Harry for both.

Liam said Niall for both

I said Harry for both

But Harry said Liam, for both.

That's when it hit me. He doesn't love me.

The interview soon finished and we were in the van on our ways home, the van was loud but I stayed quiet, looking out the window.

Paul turned, "stopping at McDonald's lads,"

Liam: Big Mac please

Harry: large fries and burger

Niall: poutine please

Paul looked to me.

"I'm not very hungry but thanks anyway, I'm not getting anything." I spoke up softly.

Harry turned, "you feel okay?" He whispered.

I nodded and he smiled, turning back to the others.

I felt the tears coming to my eyes now though.

"Umm Paul. I'm gonna get a cab rest of the way.." Harry looked confused but didn't question anything.

I lied, I was gonna walk home.

I needed to lose weight and I deserved to be cold in the snow.

Tears rolled down my cheeks as I walked slowly on the 25 minute walk home.

I stopped and looked at pictures on my phone from years passed with Harry.

Yeah I had a different body shape, different looks but that didn't make Harry completely turned off did it?

Of course it did, I'm worthless.

I opened our door and Harry hugged me.

"Baby. I got you a pizza slice for dinner since I had a burger."

"Thanks but I'm just gonna get a shower and go to bed, I'm tired."

"Not even a bit hungry love? Your stomach bothering you?"

Yes, my stomach was bothering me. Because I was upset.

"Just a bit I guess, but I'm fine."

Harry frowned.

"I can make soup." He looked at me.

"I'm okay Hazza."

I got in the bathroom, locked the door and looked at myself in the full length mirror.

I was disgusting, no wonder Harry didn't pick me.

I showered and crawled into bed, hunger gnawing at my tummy.

I fell asleep and soon Harry came to bed.

Harry's POV

I cuddled in beside Lou and heard his stomach rumbling, he lied. He is hungry. Why wouldn't he want pizza? He loves it.

"Boo..?" I tapped him.

He hummed.

"Why'd you come to bed hungry?"

His eyes filled with tears.

"Baby. You know you can tell me."

He shook his head and got up, locked himself in the bathroom.

"Lou, baby please."

That's when I heard a soft little,

"You don't love me."

My heart snapped in two.

Then I thought back to the interview.

"Is this about when I said Liam? Cause management told me to.."

I heard him sob,

"Well you didn't look upset by answering with that."

Lou's POV

"Sorry, I take everything to seriously, another flaw I have along with the millions of others.."

Harry unlocked the door, "boo? What's making you feel this low about yourself?"

"I know I'm ugly and fat, I know I'm worthless, stupid, annoying, loud, weird and dumb."

"No boo no. You're perfect."

"Really?"

"Really."

The two had a big hug and cuddled the whole night.

A/N not very good but yeah, ITS CHRISTMAS BREAK! So you know what that means.

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