Unexpected

Chapter 39

Samantha's POV: 

Harry grabs my hand harshly and pulls me back to, I try to pull my hand back, I try to get away from him but he holds me. I push my hands against his chest , I hit him I want him to go away from me. I can't even see him any more, my eyes are full with tears and I sob between the different times I hit Harry.

He doesn't say a word, he just watches me and that makes me even angrier, why can't he just say something or yell at me, but not just stand there and watch me silently.

After a while I give up and just sob trying to get away from him, his grip around my hands hasn't changed, he still watches me and I blink with my eyes to see him more clearly.

“Let me go” I order him, my voice is weak “Is that fun for you, watching me the girl you used? The girl you never actually liked? The girl who will never be enough for you?” I try to stare into his eyes, my expression is hard. My chest tightens and I feel a pain in my heart that I never knew even existed. He watches me, I can't assign his expressions but it looks like he is thinking about something he isn't really comfortable speaking of.

“Harry” I yell at him and punch him once again right into the chest. “Let me go now” He stumbles back and I know he is still drunk, maybe not as much as he was when he entered the room but he still has trouble to stay on his feet.

“You know what?” He raises his voice and lets my hands go.

“What?” I spat and cross my arms in front of my chest.

“Just go” Harry yells. “Go away, just leave me alone. I can't change who I am okay, Samantha. I don't even know what's happening with me” he takes a step towards me and I step one backwards.

“See this, that is exactly what I mean, I try to be nice to you, I apologize and you give a fuck about it” he yells and more tears fall down my cheeks. It doesn't feel better when he yells back at me.

“An apology is nothing if you don't change your actions too Harry” I scream desperate. “I don't see you even trying, nothing.. N O T H I NG” I speak extra slowly but raise my voice even more.

Harry rolls his eyes and looks at me. His eyes are filled with anger and he looks like he wants to punch someone...maybe me. But I'm not afraid, I know he wouldn't do that. I hope he doesn't think about that right now.

“Maybe that is because you never actually let me change, whenever I try you hook up with Niall” he says his voice is still loud and deep but he is speaking very slow again.

“You are just too stupid to realise that there is nothing between Niall and me, right?” I shake my head.

“Yes maybe I'm too stupid, maybe” Harry says and looks down on the ground.

“Good, maybe you should change that” I don't feel sorry with him. I actually like it, seeing him broken.

“Maybe” he whispers before he looks up again.

“Good one” I fake a smile and turn around, slowly walking away.

“Or maybe its just because I love you” I hear him mumble behind me and I immediately stop.

My heart stops for a short moment and slowly, very slowly turn around. I see Harry looking at me, his eyes are still red, but they looks sad now. Sad with a hint of embarrassment.

“Do you think this is the time to joke about things like that?” I speak and let out the breath I hold without even noticing.

“What is your fucking Problem?” Harry roars.