Unexpected

Chapter 63

Harry's POV:

I stop in front of the door lifting my hand with the key up, ready to unlock the door as I decide against it and turn around to face Samantha. She is still looking down on the ground and on her feet. I walk closer to her, only to see her walking backwards and away from me.

“Sam,” I croak, but she only shakes her head.

I sigh before I turn around again, unlock the door and let her in. She immediately goes upstairs and I don#t see any point in following her as I lock the door behind me and walk into the kitchen. I grab a beer from the fridge and sit down on one of the chairs in the kitchen. I know I fucked up again, for two seconds I was exactly the person I never wanted to be in front of her. Only one sentence, one freaking sentence and only because of that stupid ass Derek and his stupid gang. Why the fuck is Kyle such a jerk? I hold the cold bottle of beer against my cheek to cool it down, it doesn't hurt that much but I know I have to cover it up in the morning. Why did they ruin the dinner? Why? All the times I've been back here in London, I've never met them again, never. And today, when I'm actually here with my first real girlfriend they come and search for me to screw everything up. Kyle was never a friend of me but Derek, we used to be friends. Well if you can call it friends we fucked the shit out of girls together, we tried to fuck everything up. We crashed parties, we smashed cars, we ruined relationships, just because we thought is was funny. We had fun, we really had fun. Even if I never want to go back to this time again but we had fun. It was dangerous, it was scary and it was exciting, being chased by the police, trying to play different security guards and using fake IDs so different people would be blamed. We really had fun, yeah. But things changed, my life changed, I changed. Derek never accepted the fact that I liked to sing and perform, he always made fun out of me and as soon as he realized that I'm actually better in singing that he thought. He tried everything to ruin my dream and that was when he fucked everything up. That was when I tried to ruin him instead, when I screwed with his gang, our gang. This was the time when I started to stop caring about the other boys and their girls, we always had that rule. 'Never take the girl another one of the gang wants'. Well Derek fucked up and so I messed around even more. The only good thing was that Kyle's girl didn't tell him straight away, she obviously told him everything ages later. That was when I already started my new life, found real friends and earned good money by doing what I always loved. I know Derek was searching for me, but I completely forgot it over the years and I never thought he'd come back. Why now, what does that give him, like seriously Kyle just punched me straight into the face and I didn't even punch back. I'm actually surprised, like normally I'd just kick the shit out of him ans watch him suffer, well that would have been the old me but still I didn't even think of punching him back. I just threw some rude words at him and left. Maybe it was Samantha who kept me back, the way she looked at me, I'll never forget that. Her eyes were so concerned and big and she looked like she would never ever let me go. And then I opened my mouth told Kyle the truth about his 'girlfriend' and all of this concern in her eyes disappeared and she looked shocked and disappointed. Yeah she looked disappointed and that's what made me walk away, I didn't want to see here eyes again, not that look. I just walked away, without any other word, straight to the car and away from them. I know I'd never just walked away if she didn't look at me like that. But to be honest, this look smashed my heart into little pieces. It was such an honest and really fucking disappointed look. I can't get it off my mind.

I take a deep sip from my beer, leaning back into the chair, I know I should get up an talk to Samantha but right now I'm still trying to forget about the way she looked at me. I'm trying to forget about everything what happened today, well not the dinner, it was actually really nice. But alone the looks she got from those guys, and then Derek drinking a tequila with my girl. How is that even possible, why did she even do it? Does she like him? Is she already bored of me and wants to be with someone else?