Imperfectly Yours (Zayn Malik Fanfiction- Sequel of SIMS)

Chapter Thirty Four

Chapter Thirty Four

Been sitting eyes wide open behind these four walls
(Hoping you'd call)
It's just a cruel existence like there's no point hoping at all...

Baby, baby, I feel crazy, up all night, all night and every day
Give me something, oh, but you say nothing
What is happening to me?

I don't wanna live forever, 'cause I know I'll be living in vain
And I don't wanna fit wherever
I just wanna keep calling your name until you come back home
-Zayn & Taylor Swift

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I felt like this morning took much longer than it should. I was awake the whole night. I was pretending to be asleep. And he knew that I was not sleeping but he respected my privacy.

He was on his phone when I woke but he hung up after realising that I was awake.

"Faith..." he started talking to me but I just pointed a finger at him before walking over to the bathroom and locking myself in. I took a deep breath and allowed everything that has happened to settle inside me. I came to realisation that I had to face him now. I kept running away but at this point, I felt like I had no other choice left. I was scared.

I walked out of the bathroom, and back into the bedroom after freshening myself up in an attempt to match his god like beauty.

There were two cups of coffee set on the table.

And he was still sitting on that uncomfortable chair.

"You should rest on the bed for a while" I said to him.

"I am alright Faith. How are you?" God! His voice.

I gave him a tight smile. Arse! You are an arse Faith!

"So..." I closed my eyes and took a deep breathe.

"I have so much to tell you." He said under his breath.

"What is it?"

"It was all a lie" he said looking me in my eyes.

I just gave him a fake laugh.

"Really? After all this! This is what your explanation is?"

"Let me fucking explain!"

I gave him a weak nod.

"First of all, Victoria and I are not together!"

"I can see that." I gestured with my hand.

"No Faith!" He ruffled his hair in frustration.

"We never were."

"What do you mean?!" I was really getting tired of him puzzling me.

"It was all fake....I did that...I did that for you."

"Bullshit" I sneered.

"Please let me explain!"

"It was the only way to protect you."

"Protect me? From what, Zayn?!"

I finally said his name out loud and it felt like a big stone was lifted off my chest. I felt hopeless and melancholy. I knew he didn't realise but it was something I was keeping inside me. Him....I was keeping him inside and now it's out in the open. I don't know where I will go from here.

"Faith....there are people who have been blackmailing me for a very long time." That stirred something in me.

"Why?"