Goody Two Shoes #Wattys2017

Vodka, Divorce and Friends Again

Sophia's Pov

"Is that a shot of vodka ?" a voice disagreeing said beside me and I went stiff. I , after my confrontation with Axel, ran out avoiding Olivia and Mitchell. I even shut my phone down to keep away from Bless and Mitchell's phone calls. I wanted to be left alone for a period of time. I wanted time to gather the broken pieces of my heart. I want to heal from Axel's love. I want to go back in time. I want to be able to ignore him all over again, to erase all his memories out of my mind and to tame my heart out of his love...He still loves Liza. He always did and always will. His heart is hers and she is his priority. I was just a rebound to him, a stupid flare and temporary girl to toy with. Am I not worthy of love? Am I not good enough? 

"Maybe if I drink myself numb, he will care."I hushed at myself even though I totally knew that such idea was stupid. I eyed the shot glass. The liquid was clear unlike my troubled mind. Will it clear my mind if I drink it ? Will it tame my broken heart and piece it together?

"Sophie, what's wrong?" Adam questioned yet this time his tone became softer

"I want a divorce." I finally concluded and looked at the man beside me. Adam was dressed casually. He never partied alone, so he might be with friends or a date...All are dating but me. I gave all can to the man that I loved but he pushed me away in a blink of an eye. 

"Sophie, what did he do to you?" Adam asked and his brows knitted as a sign of anger. 

"He loves her. He never loved me." I said and the sobs that I tried to hide escaped my lips 

"Oh, Sophie..." Adam said and enveloped me in a familiar hug. His hands circled my waist and because I was sitting on a bar stool my head reached his shoulder. I rested my head on his shoulder and hid my crying face in the crook of his neck. I cried in his hands like I did when I was six all over again.

"Take me home please." I begged not pushing out of his hands

"My home is still open to you. Your family will bombard you with questions." Adam reasoned as his hand freed my waist and pushed me in a slow way so I can look at him

"I don't want to burden you. I pushed away now I am using you. This is not right for you. I am just as bad as him." I said trying to control my tears but they never dried 

"You will never burden me. And I wasn't that great of a friend too." he announced and looked at me apologetically 

"What do you mean?" I asked and a hiccup escaped my lips because I cried too much

"I allowed you to drift away. After trying for like two months to contact you, I gave up. Out of anger, I wanted to prove to you that you do not matter to me either. I blocked each thought of you and when my uncle wanted to ruin your marriage, he convinced me to help. I was just driven by anger or blinded by it. So, I accepted to play along. He told me that you used to have a crush on me and ordered me to be playful around you so I can attract you and maybe get you to cheat on Axel so the wedding will be annulled.. Yet after seeing your kiss, I felt guilty and walked away. For a reason, I felt his love for you...guess that I was wrong." Adam hushed and I was just stunned at such amount of information. Mr. Black wanted to used me and Adam? Adam agreed to hurt me? Is there anyone honest enough in my life? 

"I hate you all." I yelled and tried to stand off the stool but Adam's hands gripped my shoulders and pushed me down

"Sophie please don't act like this. I am sorry and I will do all to redeem myself." Adam promised holding is pinky up , a gesture we used to do when we were young.

"You all want is to redeem yourselves but did you ever think that I will get too tired?" I questioned hatefully taking my anger on him 

"I am not him Sophie. You cannot punish me for his faults. I did nothing to really hurt you. I stopped the plan when I saw how you looked at him...You love was a lost war of mine." Adam pleaded never releasing me

"I am too tired Adam. My heart hurts. My head is aching and I feel all broken and used. " I murmured as my tears started to stream once again 

"What happened exactly ?" Adam questioned as he sat on the stool next to me, turning to face me.

"It was never real." I said summing my wedding 

"Sophie, was it real for you?" Adam asked and I nodded letting a sob escape

"I fell for him. He is a great guy when he wants to be but his heart belongs to someone else." I concluded 

"It  is his lost, I swear." Adam promised and pushed the glass shot away from me 

"The only thing that is lost is my heart." I honestly replied

"Lets  go home, Sophie. You need to rest. Sleep your pain away a little maybe? " Adam said offering me a hand

"I don't trust you." I confessed to him as my eyes connected with his so familiar orbs 

"Come with me and if I do any wrong move you can leave. " He promised laying one hand on his chest and a hand in air, reminding me of the old us.

"Maybe I can stay for a day or two , until I can find a flat to rent of something." I suggested wiping my tears dry

"Are you sure about the divorce ?" Adam questioned as he walked me out of the bar

"Yes and please tell me if you know an attorney who specializes in such casses" I pleaded 

"Luca Felton." Adam replied " He is the best in divorce cases." 

"I still don't want Axel to lose the company." I murmured as we reached Adam's car

"I can arrange for you to meet Luca tomorrow. He can study the contract and see if there are any loopholes." Adam suggested and offered me a small smile. A smile he used to offer to ease my pain and to tell me that everything will be okay, soon enough. Yet this time I didn't find ease and comfort in it. It only reminded me of a certain smirk, laugh and face making my tears rush and fall.

"I love him." I confessed 

"I know but for once be selfish and save yourself." Adam pleaded as he started to drive us away

"Can you keep my stay with you a secret?" I pleaded seeing Adam nod

"Of course." He promised 

"Last demand, can you please find a new company needing an attorney?" I pleaded. I need to start all over. I may fight for Axel to keep the company but I clearly don't belong by his side.

"Luca's law company is missing a business attorney. If you want I can tell him about you, maybe get you an interview?" Adam offered 

"okay thank you." I nodded offering him a weak smile

"Can we become friends again?" He asked breaking the newly born silence that fell on us

"I hope so." I hushed a bit 

"You ran away, right?" Adam continued to question

"Yes." I briefly answered feeling tired

"Don't you want to call anyone to tell them that you are safe?" Adam said pushing his phone my way

"I texted Mitchell, my best friend and he will tell Olivia and Bless." I informed pushing the phone back

"Good, I don't need your husband to informe the police that you are missing or kidnapped or something." Adam tried to joke

"He won't care or even notice. He has a lot on his plate, these days." I grudgingly commented

"I bet he will." Adam spoke in a hush and I decided to ignore him for the rest of the way or night. I just knew that Axel won't notice. He , right now, might be hugging Liza to sleep saying sweet nothings to her. He might be falling all over again for her while my heart twists and breaks in pain.