Accidental Baby

Chapter Forty Two

COCO

I pinched the bridge of my nose, feeling the squeezing pressure in my head. A familiar ache squeezed my chest. I was kind of expecting this but it still hurt. Alam kong mali ang ginawa nina Dad at ni Tito Axel and I went along with it. I disregarded her feelings and became selfish. Mahal ko siya at gusto kong mabigyan ang anak namin ng kumpletong pamilya pero hindi sapat na rason iyon para itali siya sa isang relasyon na hindi niya naman gusto.

 I felt a pat on my shoulder and I turned my head to see Dad looking at me with a worried expression. "Are you okay, champ?" 

"Yeah... No... I don't know." I let out a tired exhale. I tried to blink away the tears that was beginning to sting my eyes.

"It's fine. I'm your Dad. Hindi mo kailangan pigilan ang emosyon mo sa harap ko." He rubbed my shoulder to try to comfort me. 

I bowed my head and pressed my fingers on my eyes as tears gushed out. "I've always loved her, Dad. We've been together since we were children, we've done everything together. Nagkaanak na nga kami eh pero bakit hindi niya ako magawang mahalin?"

"I remember being in the same situation with your Mama." Dad sighed. "I thought I did everything but I was wrong. Hindi ko kasi na sabi sa kanya na mahal ko siya."

"Iba naman ang sitwasyon niyo ni Mama, Dad. She loves you." My voice croaked.

"Sa tingin mo walang nararamdaman si Anais na kahit ano para sa'yo? She allowed you to touch her. Ang mga babae, lalo na ang mga katulad ni Anais, hindi ibibigay ang sarili niya ng ganon ganon na lang."

"May boyfriend na siya." I reminded him.

"Don't you think that's a good sign? Anais already has a boyfriend and yet she allowed you to sleep with her. Hindi ko sinasabing tama iyon pero gusto ko lang maayos niyo ang relasyon niyo para sa anak niyo. Maybe she's just confused about her own feelings."

"Dad, I did everything I could. Ayaw ko na ipilit ang sarili ko sa kanya. Nagmumukha na akong gago." I raked my fingers through my hair. 

"If you can't force her then I will." We both turned our heads to Tito Axel's direction as he walked towards us. He stopped in front of us and shook his head. "I feel sorry for you, Phoenix. It must suck having a pussy for a son."

"Axel, will you stop being an asshole? Just this one time, stop being an asshole to my son. He's already been through alot from you." Dad's eyes narrowed at him. 

"My daughter's been through alot too. From carrying a baby at sixfuckingteen and having it come out of her to raising a kid. I have the right to be an asshole." He folded his arms over his chest. "Ano? Susuko ka na lang ng ganon? Eh puro sarap lang pala ang gusto mo."

"Tito, mahal ko si Anais pero hindi ko pwedeng ipilit sa kanya ang gusto niyong mangyari. She has already decided..." I tried to keep my voice steady.

"May anak kayo. You're fucking each other and yet you can't commit to one another. Hindi na kayo mga bata para maglaro ng bahay-bahayan.  What the hell is wrong with you two?" Asik ni Tito Axel.

"I can't decide for the two of us. There's nothing more I want in this world than to marry your daughter and give our son a complete family pero siya na ang nagdesisyon."

"If you can't do anything about it then I fucking will." He said through gritted teeth.

ANAIS

Marry him.

I could still hear Cookie's voice ringing in my head. Magiging selfish ako kung gagawin ko iyon. Kung sa akin lang, gusto ko din naman bigyan ng stable at kumpletong pamilya si Cookie. But there were a lot of things to consider. I didn't want to marry knowing that he was just forced to do so. I didn't want him to sacrifice his freedom and see him miserable with me. Mas masasaktan lang kami pareho kung pumayag akong magpakasal sa kanya.