Don't Talk About It

You cried?

After I've calmed myself down, I got up, wiped my face, and headed to class. What Lucas said to me really got to me. He's said it before, but this time, I feel like when he said he was done with me, he actually meant it. I spent the entire day ignoring everyone, I really wasn't in the mood to talk or to live really. I didnt meet everyone for lunch, I just sat outside thinking. But then last period came, the one class where we were all together. I take my seat and get bombarded with questions

Where were you?

I tried finding you

Are you okay?

Riley, it's me, Maya, is everything okay? You can tell me you know that. I know when something is wrong

Riley - Guys, I just needed a little time by self, that's all
I flash a smile and pay attention to my father.
He went on and on about some president, I wasn't paying attention. When the bell rang, I quickly got up and left the room. I didn't want to answer anymore questions.

One week later

It's been a week since I've last spoken to Lucas. I've pretty much avoided talking to anyone. I've done some thinking, and what Lucas said really hurt me. So I've decided to give him a piece of my mind. So after school, I told Maya I'd meet her at my moms, and I went and searched for Lucas. He was at his locker. When he closed it, I grabbed his arm and started walking outside of the school.

Where are you taking me?

Riley!

Riley?!

He even tried getting away but I kind of pinched him and punched him. We walk inside a building a couple of blocks from my house. We walk into an office, and go see a receptionists.

Lucas- Riley, where are we?

Lady - Riley, its good to see you again

Riley - I have an appointment at 4

Lady - Your all checked in, Joan will be with you in just a minute

She smiles at us and we go seat down in the waiting room. I can feel lucas stare at me

Lucas - Riley?

Riley - Just wait

Joan - Riley, come on in.

Lucas and i get up and walk into Joans office. We both sit down on the couch that she has for her clients.

Riley - Joan, this is Lucas. Lucas, this is Joan, my therapist

Lucas - Therapist?

Joan - Ive heard a lot about you Lucas, you are a very special someone to Riley.

Lucas - You talk about me?

Riley - Ive been coming here for almost a month now.

Joan - I told Riley, that it would be a good idea to bring you in. So we can talk.

Lucas - Talk? About what?

Joan - You and her. So riley, how did the senior project go?

Riley - It went really well, we got an A.

Joan - But most importantly...

Riley - I got my friends back

I say with a smile.

Joan - When was the last time you harmed yourself?

Riley - A coupe of days ago...

She gives me a disappointed look

Riley - The shooting, it triggered me. Before that I was 2 weeks clean.

Joan - Do you have nightmares?

Riley - Yes.

Joan - Lucas, how do you feel about the shooting? Riley tells me that you were present when shots were fired.

Lucas - Yes. I saw people get shot.

Joan - How did that make you feel?

Lucas - At the moment, i thought it was a dream.

Joan - Do you have nightmares?

Lucas - ... Yes.

We spend the rest of my session time talking about the shooting. When the time was up, we said our goodbyes, and i made another appointment for next week. We start walking back to my house, but we didn't say a word to each other. We get to my apartment building, and Lucas starts walking up the stairs to head to the roof, so i follow him. We get to the top, and sit down on the edge, looking down at the city. Just like old times.

Lucas - I didn't know.

Riley - I told my parents. They were shocked, but they got me help.

Lucas - Why didn't you tell me earlier?

Riley - You mean before you yelled at me?

He shakes his head yes and looks down

Riley - I wanted to surprise you guys. Obviously Maya knows, but Zay, Farkle, you. I wanted to show you guys that you were right about me about everything.