𝙖 𝙛𝙪𝙯𝙯𝙮 𝙬𝙖𝙧𝙢 𝙛𝙚𝙚𝙡𝙞𝙣𝙜 ➳ 𝙝. 𝙝𝙖𝙢𝙖𝙙𝙖

Chapter 24

⚠️ Trigger Warning⚠️
mentions of suicide

Ummm sorry guys holy shit😭😭

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A week after the fire was Tadashi's and Cameron's funeral.

Neither me or Hiro had eaten since then.

I wore a black skinny jeans and a black shirt and black hoodie with a pair of flats on.

I covered my right eye with my bangs now.

I had gotten a scar from the fire.

And I sprained my wrist.

Me and the gang sat talking in a group.

Or rather they talked.

Still hadn't gotten any sleep from the school showcase either.

Nothing. Nothing at all.

I sat quietly listening to the group when I got up and went outside.

When I ran out of the building at the fire, I dropped my watch.

All of my 3 weeks of no sleep and all work gone.

The only people that died in the fire were Cameron and Tadashi.

I've been completely silent this whole time.

No talking.

No eating.

No sleeping.

Absolute nothing.

Tadashi was like an older brother to me.

And Cameron. I had gotten so close to him in the past 3 weeks.

It was like we'd never been separated.

Going outside the cafe I go over to the garage and lean against the door looking up at the sky.

Nothing seemed real anymore.

I didn't feel anything either.

When all of those paramedics  asked me if I was okay along with the firemen, it meant nothing.

Everything I loved in this world is gone.

Why?

Why?

Why?

Why?

Is the only thing I can ask myself.

The only thing I can ask to keep myself sane.

Even after all the bad things that'd happen to me, I'd never felt so dull.

There's no one left for me.

No one.

I'm all alone.

No Nick and Ryan.

No Cameron.

No dad.

No mom.

No Tadashi.

All my relatives passed away from being drunk and being killed or from a drug overdose.

That or suicide.

Actually...suicide doesn't sound half bad anymore....it sounds better than living...

Realizing I'd been of sitting outside for an hour, I got up and went inside as I go upstairs.

Hiro sat at the top looking dull.

No emotions.

Moments of me, Ryan and Nick flash through my mind causing me to bite my lip.

I must've bit my lip to hard causing my lip to bleed.

The blood drops down my mouth and to the floor as I furrow my brows.

Hiro must've noticed the blood as he looked up at me.

I quickly walk past him when he gets up and follows me.

Going inside of the room I run to my mattress and sit down as I contemplate life.

"This is all your fault." Looking up at him he stands in front of my mattress glaring at me as tears prick his eyes.

"How?" I ask in a monotone voice.

"How?! Tadashi and Cameron ran in there after you and Callaghan! You idiot! Don't you get it?! Your the reason why they're dead! The reason why I'm all alone in this world! You took the last thing from me!"

I jump to my feet as I go to run out of the room when Hiro pins me to a wall.

Kneeing him in the stomach he hits the floor as he rips me down with him.

He pins me down to the floor.

One of his hands hold my arms above my head as he straddles my waist.

Quickly noticing my hair he yells, "What? Why are you hiding your eye? Ashamed that you have a cut or something?!" He quickly pushes my hair out of my eye as it reveals a massive scar on the side of my face.

His eyes widen as tears fall from my  eyes.

"Are you satisfied now?" I ask in a hurtful tone.

"When did you...."

"From the impact. When I was still at the doors and the building blew up, I was sent 20 feet. That's how I got so many cuts, bruises and a broken bone.  Your lucky."

Suddenly Hiro's door opens revealing the gang.

They all look in wide eyed at our position but shrug it off when they see me crying.

Quickly rushing over they start asking questions.

Like,

"What's going on?"

"Are you guys okay?"

I immediately break from Hiro's grip as I get to the door when I look back at him.

"Do you still think it's my fault?"