i guess it's just in my nature to do self-destructive things.
once again, I've fallen in too deep.
caring about a boy far more than he cares about me.
a boy who has already turned me down once before.
a boy who has often sent me photos of him when he is with another girl.
a boy who has lead me on a countless number of times.
a boy who has completely stolen my heart.
and he doesn't even know it.
it's been almost a year now that I've sat here pining after the boy who said we should be friends. and with each passing day, I've only fallen deeper and deeper in love with him.
even though my friends tell me i can do better, he's become a bad habit i can't quit.
my day isn't complete until I've talked to him and heard how he's doing.
my face lights up at the sight of him and everyone else can tell I've fallen head over heals.
my nights are spent thinking about him and wondering if there would ever be a world in which him and I would end up together.
as with most bad habits, even if you acknowledge that you have a problem, it doesn't make it any easier to break.
as much as I know I'm setting myself up to be hurt, i just can't stop wanting him.
and thinking about him.
and talking to him.
and dreaming of him.
and at the rate, I'm not sure I'll ever be able to quit.
but i guess it's just in my nature to do self-destructive things.
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Poetrythese are the things i wish i was able to say out loud. but because i can't here are the words that pass through my mind the words no one listens to because they'll never get the chance. . {highest ranking #98 in poetry}
