Sincerely; Phan

Thirteen

The closer it got to the official rehearsals, the more dan was seeing less of Phil. He had so much work, so much promotional stuff. Photoshoots with the uk cast, and there is even word of a uk cast recording. But its starting to get to him. When he got home some nights, Phil was already asleep, and would be gone before he wakes up.

Even on his first day of running through the show in full costume.

"hey dan, you alright?" Claire, the girl playing Zoe asks, dan spins around and sees her

"o-oh yeah. I'm fine, don't worry" dan smiles re assuringly. They had an hour to kill so dan stayed in his dressing room.

Dan: Hows work?


Dan: did you want to go out to dinner tonight? I'm off around 4, if you're up for it?



Dan: tell me when you can

Dan slams his phone down and holds his head in his hands, griping at his hair. He's not okay. He looks up at himself in the mirror, seeing him in his costume. His eyes start watering the more he looks deeper and deeper, because the more he does

The more he sees of his old self

A lying, Anxious, Depressed, Abused teenager starts looking at him dead in the eye, teen dan was in the reflection.

"do you want this dan?" It asks him. Dan feels sick, he feels so utterly sick. Suddenly he's drawn out of his crisis hearing they were starting. He wipes his eyes, makes himself look like he isn't having a mental breakdown and walks out to the curtain. Today he's performing in front of directors

"alright you're good, head on out" the mic manager says as he checks dans hair mic. He walks out to the middle of the stage with his props and gets ready, and the music starts playing

"Dear, Evan, Hansen.. today is going to be an amazing day, and heres why! Because, because today, um.. all you have to do, is just be yourself" dan starts, trying to breathe and calm down.

Once they finished the whole show, the director says they're ready, the show is starting in a week.

great...

As dan heads back to his room, he gets a horrible gut feeling. He hasn't felt that in a long time, the last time he felt it this bad was with pj... dan thinks about it, and wonders if its Phil?

He quickly rushes into his room and picks his phone, seeing a text from Phil, well a photo and a text...

Phil: he's a little busy right now, dan :)

The image is of Phil, laying asleep in bed next to-

Dans eyes start watering again but he's filled with fire, angry fire, he doesn't believe Phil would have cheated on him, especially not with, James.. this is a set up. It has to be.

"d-dan? Hey honey why are you crying?" Winona, the lovely woman playing Hedi, comes into dans room and crouching next to him.

"you know my understudy, James?.." Dan asks


"Yeah honey I know, what happened?"

"l-look" dan shows her his phone, she's dead silent, she holds dan tightly in his arm and dan sighs

"oh honey i'm so sorry. I'm so so sorry" she whispers, rubbing dans back.

"i can't believe this.. I can't.. Phil wouldn't go do this? Surely its sabotage, r-right?" Dan asks

"i've seen how James has been treating you.. he needs to be reported. I'll go tell Joe, alright honey?" Winona asks, dan nods. She stands up and walks out of the room and down the hall to the directors room. Dan closes his Door quietly and sits back on his couch, trying to compose himself. He looks down at his engagement ring,