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Okay so I have a question about relationships and toxic ass shit.
Like how does a guy "love " you sooo much that they just can't act right ?
Bitch you don't love me lmfao what the fuck.
People literally and I mean L I T E R A L L Y
know what the fuck they are doing.
Mfs don't just refuse to cooperate just because they don't know bitch. People know.
People make time for who they want.
They communicate with who they want.
WHY THE FUCK ARE YOU HOLDING ON TO ME IF Y O U ARE THE FUCKING PROBLEM.
I literally can not wrap my brain around the concept that someone loves me when they continue to treat me like shit lmfao bitch that's not love that's fucking emotional abuse.
A break.
Niggas always want a goddamn break.
Bitch you already broke my heart
And my ability to properly fathom and understand my goddamn emotions
What FUCKING MORE can I literally offer.
Literally.
What.
Like how the fuck if you already act single "don't wanna end the relationship permanently "
BITCH
B I T C H
ARE U FUCKING KIDDING ME ?
Like seriously what type of toxic abuse hold-on never let go bullshit is this
I must really look like a dumb bitch.
I think this fucking millennial bs ass mindset of "holding your partner down through them treating you like shit so that y'all can be happy " phase and mindset these mfs have is ridiculous
Bitch in no way do I and should I stay in a toxic ass careless ass excuse of a fucking relationship bc the other person refuses to grow up and do the right thing. What the fuck. Fuck outta here.
Like I could really be out in this world stress fucking free
Well rested
Clear skinned
Fucking in shape
And H A P P Y
with someone who genuinely wants to be with me but I'm fucking sitting in some bs excuse of a relationship with someone who literally acts like they give zero and a fucking half shits about me like wtf
Why
Why the fuck am I being stupid.
This boy l i t e r a l l y acts like he gives no fucks
Bitch it's summer
I've seen this nigga a whole sum of 3 times all summer
Let me restate.
I've seen my so called ass "boyfriend" t h r e e times all fucking summer.
Bitch it wouldn't be an issue if the nigga was being productive and was working or at school or equally distributing his time amongst everyone he cared about but fucking N O
BITCH HE HANGS WITH HIS FRIENDS E V E R Y SINGLE FUCKING D A Y
bitch
B I T C H
I don't give a single fuck anymore.
The nigga thinks I'm tripping bc I feel like my emotional Fucking health is being abused.
This shit
Bitch in my mind that's not a relationship LMFAO BITCH UM TF IM SINGLE
I LITERALLY AM DATING MYSELF.
THE NIGGA ALSO STOPPED EXCUSE ME let me be correct
STARTED SLACKING IN HIS COMMUNICATION.
Let's understand that his fucking communication skills were already literally shit. It's like talking to a big ass brick wall that "doesn't know how it feels" when I ask him a regular ass question but let his fucking friends or anyone else (literally bitch anyone else) ask and he knows.
So practically now it's at the equivalent of no communication
What. The. Fuck.
Now we're on a "break" which idek what it FUCKING MEANS.
The nigga doesn't want to permanently end things but thinks we "need space "
Bitch do you know what that means.
It literally means "I'm tired of the bs I think you're putting me through and I really don't feel like changing rn so I'm gonna ask we go on a break so I can continue to do wtf I'm doing and you technically can't complain bc I sort of said I want some space "
Bitch
Bitch.
B I T C H
maybe it's my period.
Maybe today my anger is pure blame of my period. (Bitch honestly knowing her it literally is but still imma still rant and make impulsive decisions bc who would I be if I wasn't this messy bitch I already am )
But bitch that doesn't change the fact that a toxic mf is tryna hold on to my life and isn't even trying hard enough to do that
Bitch this is emotional abuse ( a stretch but maybe like a reasonable stretch; the equivalent of yoga bitch) and I'm done
Overit bitch
Over it
O v e r I t b i t c h
Overit
This shit gotta stop
Bc it's Fucking hurting a bitches heart and I can't take this bs no more
I don't get any real straight forward answers ever.
I don't see or hear from you consistently or at all.
Lmfao
I literally do not understand at all how people claim they don't know how they feel what the fuck moe fr how. Fucking how. I literally need to start asking these niggas to define their definitions of fucking committed relationships and what they think that entails before I start involving myself with them or letting them near my damn life like what the fuck. It makes no sense like literally makes no sense. I am so fucking done rn bro it's not funny.
How do you not wanna end or fix or change shit.
H O W
HOW can you literally sleep at night knowing you have me fucked up and not even trying to connect the damn dots as to why.
If I literally explain clear as fuck what the problem C O N T I N U E S TO BE. why the fuck are u still confused as to why I'm mad "yea I know you get upset because you think I'm always with my friends and I don't ever make time for you and it makes sense and I do" OKAY SO WHAT THE FUCK WHY IS IT STILL A PROBLEM O MY GOD.
BITCH
THAT MEANS
IF YOU LITERALLY KNOW AND UNDERSTAND THE PROBLEM AND WHY IT HAS ME (someone you supposedly fucking pretend to care about) FUCKED UP AND IT CONTINUES TO BE A PROBLEM
BITCH DO YOU KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS?
That literally is fucking code for : this is over I'm just not gonna say it
Like g o d d a m n
Jesus.
I'm so fucking done rn I literally can't breathe.
Fuck periods.
I got super anger rn
Bc bitch I have come to the recognition that I'm being fucked over by someone that doesn't know how to give a fuck
And bitch the worst part
HA
THE WORST PART IS I ACTUALLY CARE FOR THE BOY AND CANT FIND A WAY TO COMMUNICATE WITH MY FEELINGS THAT HE IS BEING BAD FOR ME AND MY BRAIN HAS FIGURED IT OUT AND NOW IM IN THE MIDDLE OF A FUCKING EMOTIONAL PERIOD INDUCED ASS BREAKDOWN BITCH UGHHHGGG DAMN LIKE I FUCKING LIKE U MY GUY WHY CANT U FUCKING ACT RIGHT DAMN.
And I'm tired coach
I want out the game.
Bitch fuck this sport.
I'm over it
You know the problem
You understand how someone would find it as a problem
Have identified that the problem is indeed valid
And still continue to bs
W O W
WOW
I'm out coach
I forfeit
My heart has literally been thrown into a fucking pit of fire and been eaten for dinner bitch
Last time I thought that fuckboy broke my heart
Lmfao
Bitch did I have a bigger storm coming
Trust me this is 1000 times fucking worse.
And I'm done.
I'm over having my time be wasted and my feelings be disregarded.
Fuck this
I deserve better.
And this time I'm gonna fucking get it.
Advice: stop settling for less and dragging yourself through more abuse. Leave bitch. Fuck him. If he can't see he's wrong and how it's hurting you then he clearly doesn't and will not give a shit about you. And if you see and know it's hurting you and won't leave then you are no better than him.
Fuck these boys that don't care.
F u c k T h e m.
Period.

- the princess gone mad because physically she escaped but emotionally she's still trapped by the chains of a boy who knows all the chords of her heart and still plays the wrong song.