And that's not even the worst thing.
When someone choses to piss you off it was their decision not your own.
You can only control why you are angry or how angry you get.
It sucks the most ass however when nobody takes your side.
No one wants to even try and take a moment to even think about how might feel from your perspective.
Whether you lost a friend, made an enemy out of a family member, or just simply have lost yourself and the slightest Bit of care in the fucking world.
Although hate might be a strong word that's something I truly dislike.
With my heart even my soul,
But I'll never know what it feels Like to genuinely dislike something or someone if I've never even genuinely felt happiness or love.
So who the hell am I to say I hate someone if I can't even be 100% that I love them.
I damn sure ain't happy though.
Often I find myself crying telling myself sad things reading pity poetry to Let all of it out because it sucks some serious ass to feel grey.
It's Like your all alone
Nobody is there
Nobody really cares
Your all alone
In a world or even in a room
Full of people to reassure you and tell you they'll always be there.
When the truth is they're not
And no they won't be there forever
It's the damn circle of life
They are busy working and worrying about themselves theybdont realize your self diagnosed depression.
In general I'm done.
Emotionally I can't take things anymore
In tired of people in general
I'm tired of people calling me dumb
I'm tired of people teasing me
I'm tired of people calling me a baby because I'm sensitive
I'm fucking tired.
And shit builds and builds and grows
And regardless if an apology was said
The whole "I'm sorry " shit only goes so far.
Yea bitch your sorry ok I get it
But it's a routine.
Its all a lie.
"I'm sorry " is pity
It's just a keepsake
Because your gonna do the shit again
Your gonna disappoint again
So save your stupid ass "sorry "
Because I know you aren't
And that is why I'm grey.
YOU ARE READING
To anyone that wonders if I'm writing about them: I am
Short StoryYou See, lately I've began to question why in the hell is everyone so flip floppy? why do people become so shady? Well, I know for sure it's not my fault or maybe that's just what I think
