Hal didn't understand. I had only taken the car out for a drive because I needed to be alone to think about Talia being pregnant. I thought I would be back before she even noticed I was gone, but yet here I was on my knees begging her to stay.
"She's what?!" Hal implored with range in her eyes.
"Pregnant, Hal," I croaked and Hal froze like a statue just like I had when I had heard the same exact news. "The night we had sex, I guess I had been too drunk to realize we weren't using protection. She only had a couple shots, so she should have said something but she didn't!" I continued to yell from the ground at Hal's frozen figure that was towering above me in complete shock.
"Take me home," she suddenly whispered in a hoarse voice before getting in the car and slamming the door behind her.
"But... but," I scrambled off the ground to my feet that quickly carried me to the other side of the car. "Haleigha, please talk to me!" I roared as I got in the driver's seat. But she looked straight ahead out the windshield and didn't budge. "I can't lose you over this. I love you, and I made a huge, huge mistake!" I wiped the tears from my eyes.
"Take me home," Hal repeated in the same tone, crossing her arms.
"Would you please just-"
"I said take me home, goddamit!" She cried stomping her bare feet on the ground. So without a word, I took out my key and ignited the engine. Then, I sped out of the parking lot. Every couple seconds I took a quick glance at Hal to see her facial expression. She sat still and quiet with a tightened jaw of anger.
"Just tell me what you're thinking!" I finally let out to break the unbearable silence.
To my surprise, she answered. "I'm thinking you should drive faster so I can get away from you sooner."
My heart ached within my chest at the fact my very own girlfriend now hated me and wanted nothing more than to get away from me. I had never hated myself more in my life for this because I had always made it my main goal to make Hal happy, and in the end I was ultimately failing.
So instead, I listened to her and I sped up even more to get her home faster.
The rest of the ride back to Hal's house was extremely painful due to the screaming silence that rang throughout my ears. I parked in my usual spot in her parking garage, and she said nothing more as she grabbed her purse and exited my car.
"Hal, wait!" I called after her as she walked right past the stairs on her right. "What are you doing?" I asked since she always took the stairs.
"Taking the elevator," she said plainly as she pushed the 'up' button near the elevator doors.
"Hal, you hate elevators!" I reminded her. She bit her lip and turned to me.
"You know what, Luke? I do. But there comes a time when you need to suck it up and get the fuck over things," she shook as the doors opened and she got in. "Just like I need to do with you," she spoke before the doors closed right in my face. No, I couldn't let her get away like this. I had waited so long for her to be mine and now I was losing her yet again, and for good.
I shuffled my feet over to the stairs and ran up them as fast as I could, floor after countless floor until I reached Hal's. "Wait!" I stumbled through the hall to her door she was currently struggling to unlock.
"Luke," she turned to face me as makeup streamed down her face from the tears I knew she had finally let free in the elevator. She probably didn't think I would follow her. "Would you leave me alone already? I'm done with you, I told you!" She swung open the door and barged into her empty apartment, throwing her purse aside.
"Please! Can we just talk?" I followed her into her room as she tossed herself on her bed. Her hair sprawled out in all different directions, and she looked so beautiful laying there. I wished I could tell her that as I toppled over her body and kissed her passionately, but I knew I would probably never be able to do that again.
"No! There's nothing to talk about. If Talia's going to have your kid, you're going to be busy twenty four seven and have no time for me. Luke, I can't date someone with a baby, it just doesn't work that way!" Maybe she had a point. An awful point. But even if she did, I couldn't just let her out of my life. She was Haleigha Jenkins, my best friend and now former girlfriend. She meant the world to me. But I knew I had to accept the fact we couldn't be anymore and it was going to eat me alive.
"Okay, okay," I nodded and sat down next to her on the bed. "You're right, it doesn't work... but damn, I love you. And I can't just let you out of my life!"
"Hemmings, I don't want to talk," Hal rolled over and faced the wall. "Just leave. No, go find Talia. She probably really needs you right now."
I shook my head, "I'm not going anywhere tonight."
"Yes, you are. And it's away from me because I said so."
"Fine," I gave in. "Fine, I'll leave," I sighed as I stood up and backed out of her room turing off the lights. I shut her door behind me and made my way down the hall. I wasn't actually going to leave, I would stay until she woke up. Maybe things between us would be calmer in the morning... Ugh, who was I kidding? They would never be. In fact, her rage would only continue grow like a fire every time she thought about it. And I knew the fire would be too big for me to ever be able to put out.
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It was 2:47 a.m. and Hal still hadn't left her room yet. For that I was glad. I was sitting on her couch starting out at the city lights knowing that somewhere out there, there was a girl carrying my baby. A girl I didn't love like I loved Hal.
After a while, I got up off the couch and returned back to Hal's room. The door squeaked as I opened it but Hal didn't wake. She laid in the same position I had left her.
Quietly, I sat on her bed, positioning myself beside her until I was laying right next to her sleeping body. I didn't bother to put my arm around her; I was too afraid she'd wake up which only reminded me of the first night I had slept Wryeth her in her bed.
Instead, I watched her torso move up and down from her breathing as she snored rather loudly. I had always found her snoring a bit obnoxious, but you never realize how much you secretly love a person's annoying flaws until you're about to lose them. So now it was music to my ears.
You know, you begin to really regret everything you used to take for granted about a person once they're gone. I was laying directly next to Hal, and I already felt like she was gone.
I regretted all the times I had said mean jokes to her because I was always only kidding. And every single time I didn't kiss her when I should have...
I'm going to miss this, I thought as I began to drift off to sleep before could I think about it any longer. Please just let this all be a dream.
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the promise ➳ hemmings
Fanfiction| Promises are just very sincere lies. We make them thinking that we'll keep them. But in time, our motivation to keep them fades-- just like the hope and trust others had in us that they wouldn't. It's just sad to think that's what our relationship...
