Death University

Chapter 50

Chapter 50: Truth

Madame Selina's final words gave me chills all over my body! What am I going to do now? Should I give up the book?

I think no! I shouldn't let it go... Not until I know what's really happening! Not until I know why am I involved in the book. Hindi ako namamalik-mata lang! Nakita ko talaga ang mukha ko sa aklat na iyon. I was really there and it scares the hell out of me!

First, the book is glowing when I touch it. Second, when I opened the book, there's no images on every page. And third, when I opened the book again, I saw my face! I can't let this pass.

And as possible, we need to find the person who has the power. Gusto ko nang makalabas mula sa paaralang ito! I want to be free! Oo, kasalanan ko kung bakit ako napadpad dito. Matigas ang ulo ko but I just want to be away from my manipulative parents. And it turns out that I miss them so much.

I know this is a huge mistake. I made a huge mistake, running away from home. Pero ang sakit na kasi talaga. I feel caged and I feel suffocated by my parents. At kung darating man ang araw na makakawala na ako rito, sana naman hindi na ako masasakal at hahayaan na nila akong piliin ang kurso na gustong-gusto ko mula pa noong bata ako.

Mahal ko ang mga magulang ko, alright. Pero dumating na kasi sa point na ayaw ko na talaga sa mga desisyon nila para sa akin. Kahit sila ang gumawa sa akin kaya nandito ako sa mundo, kahit sila ang nag-aruga sa akin, and even they are the people that built me to be the person I am today, I still have the right to decide for myself. Hindi naman kasi sila ang nag-aaral at lahat-lahat kundi ako. I have the right to decide for myself.

When me and Julia arrived at our second period class this afternoon, the professor said that she will only be discussing for about thirty minutes and it means na may thirty minutes kaming free time after she discusses.

I listened throughout the thirty minutes of discussion at naisipan kong pumunta sa drink station ng DU. I don't know, I just have the urge to drink something.

"Julia, I wanna drink." Sabi ko sa kanya at bahagya namang lumaki ang mga mata niya.

"Are you serious?"

"Yes, I am. Just a little bit. You know me, I am not a heavy drinker. I am not a drunkard. I just want to drink a little bit."

"Okay, fine. Sasamahan kita. I'll drink as well."

We both then went to the drink station of DU at marami-raming estudyante ang umiinom. But luckily, there's some empty barstools left for me and Julia to sit on.

"One shot of Jack Daniels, please." Sabi ko ng hindi nakatingin sa bartender.

Naramdaman ko naman ang gulat sa ekspresyon ng kaibigan ko. "Are you sure about this, Zee? Jack Daniels is a strong—"

"Yeah, I am sure. I already tried drinking a glass of it before. Bago ako napadpad rito, I go to parties sometimes and I have tried it. I know it's a strong drink but I can manage."

Again, I don't go to parties often and I am not a heavy drinker. But sometimes, I just want to drink.

"One tequila for me, please." Sabi naman ni Julia.

"Thanks," I said when the bartender gave me a glass of the alcohol I wanted.

I sipped on my glass of alcohol and I feel like I want to vomit because of the strong taste of Jack Daniels. Pero alam kong masasanay naman ako nito and perhaps, it's just one glass. It'll not hurt.

Matagal-tagal pa bago ko naubos ang inumin mula sa maliit na baso. I feel somewhat dizzy but I can manage to walk straight at nasa tamang huwisyo pa ako.