The Long Chase For The President's Spouse

Chp. 69

Chapter 69: I'm Always by Your Side

"I've always been at your side," Zhang Heng said. Had he been younger, he might have been surprised by Gu Zhun's tears. But he remained unfazed now as he lifted Gu Zhun's head and commanded, "Look me in the eye, Gu Zhun."

Although Gu Zhun often defied Zhang Heng's demands out of pride, he could not help but follow his command this time. He raised his gaze to meet Zhang Heng's.

"Are you finally willing to look at me now?" Zhang Heng asked coldly. Stunned by the stern expression on Zhang Heng's face, Gu Zhun was at a loss for words. Zhang Heng seemed like a completely different person and Gu Zhun did not know how to react.

"Talk to me! Tell me if you are worried about the imbalances in our relationship! Tell me if you are scared of being hurt!" Zhang Heng was near hysterical as he continued shouting, "Why do you always keep your feelings hidden? What if they get too much for you to bear? Do you know how worried I am?"

Zhang Heng rushed forward and crushed Gu Zhun to his chest.

"Zhang Heng...?"

Zhang Heng buried his face in the crook of Gu Zhun's neck and asked quietly, "Do you know... why I fell for you seven years ago?"

"It's because my heart would ache whenever I saw how lonely you were. You were always alone, regardless of whether it was between classes, during mealtimes, or after being roughed up by the school bullies... Watching you always hurt so much."

Initially, he assumed that he was simply sympathizing with Gu Zhun, but things began to change after he grabbed Gu Zhun by the groin for the first time. He had only wanted to make fun of Gu Zhun, but the touch awakened new unfamiliar desires within him and the lingering sensation in his fingers left him in a daze for the entire class afterwards.

Ever since then, Zhang Heng found himself subconsciously searching for Gu Zhun all the time. Once Gu Zhun was found, he would put on a cheerful air and make his way into Gu Zhun's lonely bubble to banter with him. But no matter how much Zhang Heng played the fool, Gu Zhun's gaze never fell on him. In all of these one-sided interactions, Gu Zhun never acknowledged the company that Zhang Heng offered him.

Love grew with time, and before Zhang Heng realized it, he was no longer able to take his eyes off Gu Zhun. Once, during an exam, Zhang Heng stared at the back of Gu Zhun's head for so long that the invigilator was convinced that he was trying to look at Gu Zhun's answers. He could never look away from Gu Zhun until one day, Gu Zhun began to glow in his eyes. It was as if Gu Zhun was enveloped in a dazzling halo of the most brilliant light...

Perhaps this was how it felt to be truly smitten with someone...

Listening to Zhang Heng's confession now, Gu Zhun found it hard to believe what he was hearing. He struggled to make sense of how Zhang Heng's feelings for him grew and transformed over time from sympathy to love.

"If that's the case, why didn't you... tell me... seven years ago...?" Gu Zhun asked, stumbling over his words as he kept his head down. This was not the first time Zhang Heng confessed his feelings, but this confession felt completely different from his previous ones.

The first time Zhang Heng confessed in the hotspring it had felt more like a prank or a greeting from a long-lost friend.

The second time he confessed was in front of the oden stall outside their hotel in Japan. He told Gu Zhun that he had been in love with him for a long time and declared that he would continue loving him in the future. In spite of himself, Gu Zhun was moved and agreed to try to develop their relationship further.

Now, in his fourth confession, Zhang Heng was telling him that he had fallen in love with him seven years ago...

Zhang Heng looked down as he struggled to answer Gu Zhun's question. Eventually, he said hesitantly, "Because... I didn't think I was good enough for you."