Love is a myth...

Bai~! :3

HAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAH-HEY GUYS GUESS WHAT?!?!?
I FELL DOWN THE SPIRAL OF DISPAIR AND DISAPPOINTMENT AGAIN :D
I'M SUCH A FAILURE I COULDN'T EVEN KEEP MY COOL FOR A DAY!I'VE ISOLATED MYSELF FROM EVERYONE WHO COULD'VE  CARED FOR ME AND NOW I'M ALONE AGAIN! I'VE FUCKING DONE IT NOW! I'VE FUCKING DONE IT. I'M GOING TO RIP MYSELF TO SHREDS-NO! ACTUALLY,ITS ALREADY HAPPENED!

I HATE MYSELF SO MUCH I JUST WANT TO RUN DOWNSTAIRS AND FUCKING KILL MYSELF HHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH
I FEEL LIKE A MANIAC AND I WANT TO HIDE IN MY CLOSET FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE

WHY CANT I JUST DIE ALREADY?!?!?!?
ALL MY FRIENDS HAVE BEEN PUSHED AWAY  I THOUGHT I COULD DEAL WITH THIS ON MY OWN BUT CLEARLY I WAS WRONG

HOW COULD A WEAKLING LIKE ME DEAL WITH THIS ON MY OWN?!?!

IT SHOULDN'T EVEN MATTER. THIS WORLD WILL ALWAYS MOVE ON WITHOUT ME. IT'LL ALWAYS BE THE SAME AS IT ALWAYS HAS.

I COULD BE THE COWARD THAT I AM AND RUN AWAY FROM EVERYTHING AND EVERYONE. LEAVE ALL THE WRECKAGE OF MY SELF DESTRUCTION BEHIND ME FOR EVERYONE I'VE EVER MET TO DEAL WITH.

I just want this all to be okay...
But I lost all hope for that to happen by now. I don't remember the last time I smiled at someone in real life and it had been a genuine smile. I don't remember the last time I hid in my closet like a child to hide from doing chores. I don't remember the last time I went to someone in real life to ask for help. I don't remember the last time I ended the day feeling excited for the next.

I hope none of you guys really cared for me. Because you shouldn't. It's not really doing any good for you. You're just letting me make your day worse.

It'll all be okay. You won't miss me. If you do,you won't later. I promise. I hope I didn't leave any big of an impact. I guess this might be goodbye :)

I just want it all to end........................