Love Contract - A Love Sick fan fic

Stating My Intentions

I'm not the kind of guy who dwells on lovers and shit like that. That's not my style. I bang and if I like it, I may come back again after a period of time because I don't want you to have expectations. And I never bang more than twice. For most chicks, that's like a declaration of love. 

I don't date either.

 Ok I've done it before but it's not really my thing right now. The company is terrible. I hang out and only in a group. If you see me talking with someone one on one in that kind of personal setting, bet your ass it's business. 

I've only ever broken my rules for 2 people and technically the the first one didn't count since she was my first girlfriend when I was 12. It lasted one glorious month and then we bombed spectacularly. But that was all in the fun and I never made my rules to be die hard either. I always expected someone would come along and make me break them.

Fian did.

You have to understand. I've been watching him for years knowing that I would be with him one day so I've been practicing and gaining experience. I've also been slowly learning all I can about him. I don't mean it like I've been stalking him in some creepy way. Just that when he's in my vicinity, I keep an eye on him.

That night, I caved and called Fi. I am really great at the cold war. I can keep it going for months. Years if I have too. I can't seem to do that with Fi. We usually line instead of talking but this time I think I need to actually talk to him. I pull up his number and hit call before I can chicken out. He makes me feel that level of insecurity.

"Oil."

"Hey."

There is a silence as I try to gather my thoughts. I should have done that before I called but then I might have backed out. He really hurt me this time and that's weird. I never let anyone get close enough to do that. I wasn't even thinking of letting him get that close. So when did he?

"I actually had the phone in my hand to call you." I lock on to what he is saying. "I wanted to go see the new movie we were talking about so I was going to ask you today. I understand if you don't want to go with me_"

"Fi." I cut him off. "Today you really hurt me and that's a new thing for me. Like, I don't care about anyone enough to ever let them get so close that they can hurt me like that. When I came to see you, I was so happy. We've only been talking and I knew you were busy. I just wanted to see you for once. Maybe spend a couple of minutes with you and look at you up close. Every time I see you lately, you always look so tired."

"Oil." His voice was whisper soft and I wanted to stop but I needed to get this out. 

"So I came by thinking, I'll tease him a little, maybe get him to smile. I wonder if he's eaten yet? Should I try talking him into going out with me? Maybe I can take him to his favorite place and reward him for working so hard. Reward me too for being such a good guy and giving you a break."

"Oh. I feel like an even bigger tool. Oil. I'm sorry that I took it out on you. I'm not making excuses because this was my fault but I want to explain something to you. I've always suspected that you maneuvered Sanai to break up with me. I never took it personally because you did me a big favour. When she called today and said she was just testing. That she had wanted to make the relationship more interesting or some nonsense like that, she made me so angry. I've always had a bit of a hasty temper but I try to have a handle on it because once I'm angry, I start overthinking and then the moment I see the person I'm mad at..."

"You fly off the handle. I've only seen it once. I've also seen Phun and the others calm you down once or twice." I remembered that now that he had explained himself to me.