Pure Attraction

Chapter 28

"Austin." I whimper against the door while cursing myself mentally.

I can't believe that this loop is happening yet again. We were doing just fine but then I just had to use a fucking tone on him. I wish I could just slap myself with a damn brick right now.

"Baby, I didn't mean that. You know that I love you." I utter and slide down until my ass touches the floor. Then, I lean my head against the door. I sigh and try to control the feelings that are bubbling up in me. We were having so much fun but then I messed everything up.

This is what I do; I fuck things up.

I hear the door squeak open but I didn't give much thought on it. I didn't realise that tears were falling from my eyes until a tissue was in my face. What the hell? I look up and see William with a box of tissues in his hand and a sad smile on his face.

"Thanks." I mumble and pull out a tissue, wiping my tears away with it. "You know my brother isn't in there anymore, right?" He asks and sits next to me. "What?" I raise an eyebrow. He nods and then points at the door. I gasp in panic. "He left?"

William immediately shakes his head. "God, no. He wouldn't do that to you, no matter how mad or sad he is." I look down on my lap. "Well, is he mad or sad?" I ask while taking another tissue. He shrugs. "A little of both, I guess. Trust me, Paradice, he loves you too much to just leave you like that. He is sad about the joke though; paranoid, in fact." I look up to glance at him.

"He told you about the joke?" I ask. But the question that is really on my mind was: 'he knew that I was joking?'. "Oh yeah. He told me that right after he locked himself in the bathroom, he went out through my mum's room and of course, he seek my help." He explains.

I nod, hoping that he would explain further. "I asked him what was wrong and he told me about the joke. He told me that he knew that it should be taken as a joke but he just couldn't help but be paranoid that it might be true." I sigh. "So technically, he is having doubts." William bobs his head.

"He shouldn't have doubts because I love him more than my own life. He'll never know how much I love him though; he's more myself than I am. Whatever our souls are made of, his and mine are the same. Don't you see, William? I am Austin." I couldn't help but cry again.

"Par, you must really love him because you just quoted that from Wuthering Heights. He is just having all these thoughts in his mind because, I quoted: 'she is too pretty, too smart and just too perfect for me. With the age difference, I couldn't help but think that she will leave me for someone better'." He states while putting a comforting hand on my shoulder.

I didn't know that Austin are having these kinds of feelings too.

"Like I've said to my friend before, age, height, religion and what-so-ever doesn't matter. Love is love. I love him, William; I really do." I say as I hear the door open again.

"Paradice? William?" Austin calls out. I wipe the remaining tears away and then stand up. I mouth a 'thank you' to William before walking towards Austin. When he sees me, he instantly attacks me into a hug. "I'm so sorry, Par. I shouldn't have just left you like that." He apologises and lays his head on my shoulder.

I sigh and then rubs his back soothingly. "It's okay, Austin. I understand now." I smile softly as we let go. I notice that his eyes are watery but no tears come out. "I love you so much," He says and holds my cheek with his hand. "I love you too. I'm sorry that I made the joke." I mumble and then takes his hand away from my cheek.

"That's what it is: a joke. It wasn't meant to be taken seriously." He affirms and we hug it out one more time. After a few seconds, William - whom I've forget was in the room - awes. "You two are so sweet. Trust me when I say you two are going to marry each other."