Pure Attraction

Chapter 30

"I can't believe you lied to us, Paradice." I wince when I hear the disappointment in my mum's voice. "You had me worried, your father worried and the fact that we found out that you were actually out with the guy that I specifically told you not to see just tops everything off." She cries out and walks back and forth.

I look down on my lap and fumble with my fingers. My mind wasn't on a right place and thoughts are running wild in my head. "I-" There was no use explaining because she wouldn't give me a chance to even open my mouth. "No, Paradice. You have no words to say on this. You have disappoint your family."

And that was the breaking point.

The first tear flows down my cheek and then the others come naturally. I tried to hide my sobs but nothing helps. "I-I'm sorry." I stutter, saying those words over and over again through the tears.

"3 months ago, you said - I quote - 'I'm sure that won't happen anytime soon, mum' when I was worried that you will find someone and become like this. You promised that it won't happened but it did, Par." Mum shakes her head in disappointment.

"Dice, you are a disgrace to the Newman family. You can't even follow a simple rule of not seeing the boy. You are young and what if something happens to you? What if you got kidnapped? Do you think I could live knowing that my daughter went missing or maybe died because of some, some, some minor?" She spits out the last word and somehow, it dried all of my tears and made me do something that I have never had the guts to do in my fifteen years of living on this Earth.

"Don't you dare talk about Austin like that!" I scream at my mother's face. I gasp right after I knew what I just done. My mother and father had the same shocked expression on their faces. "Look, you are screaming at your own mum and you are even defending him, Paradice. Don't you see what he has done? He ruined you." My dad states and gives me the look which usually makes me regret my actions instantly.

But this time is different; it doesn't make me feel regret of my actions, instead, it only fuels my anger more.

"He gave me something that you will never give me!" I screech. By now, I'm on my feet, neck-and-neck with my parents, something that I've never dreamt of doing. "For years, I've dreaded for someone who will hold my hand until the day I die. Isn't that the reason why we are living? To find someone who will love us just as much as we love ourselves? He is the one that I want to wake up to, mum. I don't want to let go of him because I know that there's something between us. It's there, a fucking spark is there."

"And what is between you two, Dice?" My mum challenges me as she crosses her arms, waiting.

"A pure attraction." I tell her boldly.

My mother throws her head back and howls. I am fed up, face stained with tears but still red with anger. "Dice, sweetie, do you even know what love is? You are fifteen years old, you've barely live on this land and yet you claim that you have some sort of attraction with a guy who apparently is your junior. I mean, wow." My mother laughs again and I raise my middle finger behind my back.

"I sure as hell know that love is between us both. You have no right to talk about him or us like that. Just because I'm fifteen doesn't mean I don't know shit, mum. Maturity isn't based on your age, it's based on your mindset. And stop calling him a minor or a junior or what-so-ever. He is more mature than you think and him being two years younger than me doesn't mean shit. He is worth more than what you think he is." I snap at her.

If you told me last year that I'm going to shout at my own mother just because I fell in love with a boy, I'd probably laugh at your face. But seeing the current situation, it seemed right to defend him and myself.