REDEMPTION

25. Things are about to change.....

I know....it is a small update... hope you like it. :D

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Beam POV

After a hectic day at the seminar, I was all ready to have some alone time to think about my behavior towards Achara, towards my Friends and especially towards him. I can't take my mind off him, I still remember my hands having his blood. I never expected that I will react in such a violent way....but I did and hurt the most important person to me..... 'my Forth'....yes I still love him and will always do....I guess I have to accept it... that he is happy with Pete. I must learn to control my anger...he is not my punching bag anymore...I cannot treat him like this.

This guilt is making me crazy, as I was about to relax...there was this sudden knock on the door. I just went ahead without thinking much...there was this hotel manager with one small request...to attain to someone who is sick.... needs some medical attention. So I willingly accepted to volunteer, as a responsible citizen of this country as well as a professional. So I got dressed in simple Pj's and pullover shirt....walked towards the said room...it was good as I was need not have to walk too much to reach said place.

I just knocked on the door, I didn't get the response...may be I must call them so that they can come with the master key...I hope the occupant of this room is really not that sick... I hope he opens the door. I heard some movement, as someone was really struggling to open the door.... I was prepared to introduce myself and the reason for causing discomfort at this hour of the day. 

As I saw some movement, I started to introduce, "Hi, am Dr. Beam, the floor manager requested me to check on you. So how are you feeling...!" As I lifted my head, there was this familiar face staring at me with mixed emotions. I was taken back, life is playing wicked games with me, I so badly wanted to see him...meet him...this is indeed destiny. This time I will not rush....take it slow and talk like old time...we use to do a lot of talks while cuddling...does he does the same with Pete.... I really don't know....must not think about it....(Beam...focus...what he does with Pete is non of my concern....but still )

"Let me check you, please..!!" he was reluctant to let me in....I kind of pushed him...so due to that he was walking slowly as if he is tired. There was this one moment when he lost his balance, but he was quick to recover his steps. Somehow he reached his bed, he was wearing a loose-fitting T-shirt and Pj's. I went inside and checked him, his body temperature was elevated....he was just feeling drowsy as if my presence has an effect on him.

I just took a small towel and kept it on his forehead to bring down his temperature, I could only ask one thing, "Does Pete knows about it...!!" to which he didn't say anything...he was burning with fever...for the first time I was taken back to those old time...whenever he returned from those fights, from rough games and hazing activities he used to cuddle to me and slept burying his nose into the crock of my neck.

I don't know what got into me; I went and sat beside him...just creasing his cheeks....his body temperature was rising for sure. All the old memories were playing like a movie in my mind.... it felt so real,  want to hold him and tell him everything is good....I am here nothing to worry...but I can't. 

I want him back in my life, whatever it takes for me to be beside him....will do it. I guess I need to have patience.... 'Best things happen to those who wait'. I called the Manager to inform that I have checked, in case if we need to take him to the hospital I will inform him. So now here I am sitting close to him, was so tempted to place small kisses.... So I did. 

I brought my face close to his, touching my forehead to his, I was talking to him, "why things have to change, I know I did a mistake....I am so sorry..." tears started to flow without me knowing it.

"I am sorry for what I did, I broke your heart...trust me it was not easy... when the right time comes I will tell you everything.", went ahead and place some soft kisses on his chapped warm lips. I couldn't take it, all those emotions they were just out... I have kept them hidden for so long.... he must know the real reason .... I know ...it's too late...but still, I will try to bring back the old time.

I just went close to him, our face was just a few inches apart.... suddenly he opened his eyes. I saw that lost expression in those eyes; I just can't take it anymore so I went ahead and kissed those lips hungrily. 

There was no resistance from him, so we both continued, without any second thought I just lifted him and wrapped my hand around his neck. After feeling short of air, we both parted our lips...both panting.... he had his eyes closed and it hit him as if he did some kind of mistake ....he opened his eyes looked in mine for few sec....he just pushed me lightly and got off the bed...in that moment he lost his balance and fell hard on the floor.

When I was about to walk towards him, there was this sudden push by someone....when I looked up...there were two angry eyes looking at me.

At that moment I felt..... I have screwed it up big time.... all my chances are gone...!!

I saw a mix of emotions in those eyes.... it was Pete...that I have to answer now for my actions..... I hope he didn't saw us kissing.

I don't want to be the reason for their fight.....deep down I want them to be away from each other....i know I am selfish....what can I do ... I can't resist him...he is 'my Forth'