Am fear eile ~Outlander~

~Chapter Thirty Seven~ Skye

We drove back to the place where the men where waiting. Jamie sat me infront of him and had placed a blanket over me.
"Wohoe," Jamie stopped the horse. "Git th' horses some water," he ordered the group of men who where traveling with me and then helped me of the horse. "Greer yer comin' wi' me," he pulled me painfully away from the group but I kept mine mouth shut.
There was nothing to say to him nor the other way around. Mine escape plan had failed.
"Noo say something. Anythin' that looks lik' an apology," he started and mine mouth fell open.
"An apology?" I repeated. "For what? Being a hostage for Randall? You made it sound like it's mine own damn fault."
"Well it's yer fault," he said. "If ye staid put whaur ah tellt ye tae stay put, none o' this wid hae happend. Bit why would ye listen tae me. A'm none ither than yer guidman!" He practically yelled. "Ye dae whit ever ye want tae dae. 'n' th' ither moment ah fun ye flat oan yer chest wi' yer skirts up, Wi' th' wirst scam o' th' world atween yer legs. Richt tae tak' ye afore mines own damn eyes,"
"Well you could take me with you," I fired back. "But you didn't and what if I asked you to take me with you? You wouldn't listen because I'm a woman and worse on that, you don't pay any attention to what I have to say," I yelled back at him and he looked away. "Woman are only fit to do as they told and warm their man's bed like a whore."
Jamie grabbed me painfully by mine arm. "Thanks tae ye whaur oan th' run wi' 100's o' red coats oan oor tail," In a reflex, I raised mine hand and slapped him across the face.
Jamie grabbed my arms again. "Dae that again 'n' ah slap ye sae hard yer ears are red,"
"You are a fool," I pushed him away. "Do you really think I would ran away to captured by the English on purpose,"
"Ah dae think ye did it oan purpose," he pushed me aside and walked past me. "Tae git back oan me fur whit happend at the glade wi' th' deserters,"
"You think as punishment I went for a walk in the woods for a change that some English soldiers would take me!" I yelled. "God Jamie you are one big hell of a god forsaken fool,"
"I orderd ye to stay put!" He fired back.
"I don't have to take orders from you," I walked towards him and he also walked up to me grabbing me again.
"Aye ye do, ye are my guidwife," he spit.
"Your wife," I repeated. "I'm not your property, Jamie. But you can't stand that someone is having something that belongs to you,"
"Ye dae belong tae me 'n' yer mines guidwife Greer, Wheter ye like it or not," he sounded suprisingly calm which worried me a bit.
"Well I don't like it," I pushed Jamie away. "I don't like it one bit," I pushed him again and I saw his jaw tense. "But that doesn't matter to you? Is it? As long I spread my legs for you when you are wanting that!" He wanted to walk away from me but I stopped him. "You don't care how I think or how I feel. That is what a wife is to you. A thing to stick your cock in,"
"Ye," he grabbed my arms and this time I fought back.
"Let go of me. You fucking bastard," I yelled but he grabbed me tighter.
"Ye foul mouthed bitch. Ye'll not speak to me that way!" He yelled in mine face.
We then fell silenced. Panting from anger but I saw regret in his face. He sat down and I sank next to him.
"Whin ah cam back 'n' ye whaur nae thare Greer. Mines whole world stopped. 'n' then young Willie tellt me ye whaur taken by they sassenach scums. Ah... Ah..." he took another deep breath. "A' ah cuid see was yer body, flogged 'n' tortured. Dangling o' th' ground wi' a rope aroond that bonny neck o' yers."
"Jamie. I..." I started but he stopped me.
"Na Greer. Ye dinnae hae tae say anythin'," he took my hand. "'twas indeed a foolish idea that ye did this as revenge o' whit happend at th' glade," he smiled as I smiled back. "Bit whin that happend. A'm feelin' fur th' foremaist time in mines live powerless, A saw th' wifie ah care sae much fur bein' violated 'n' a' ah cuid dae wis watch,"
"Jamie you where held gunpoint. It's not like you could do anything," I pressed a kiss on his hand. "I'm sorry I yelled all those things at you."
"Ye whaur entitled tae. Mah anger 'n' worry git th' best o' me," he stood up and then helped me up.
"We shuid be movin', it wouldn't be lang or th' sassenach ur oan oor necks, trying tae snap it even afore we ur at Fort Willeam," he smiled and so did I.
"First give me a kiss," I said and he bended forward to press a kiss on mine lips.
He than took mine hand and pulled me towards the horses.

I combed mine hair when I was in the room of the tavern. Jamie was downstairs talking with Dougal about what happend.
The way they looked at me told me something worse was going to happen but I decided to ignore it. The door opened and I smiled.
"Well that took a long time," I stood up and I saw him hesitated.
"Greer, We hae talked it oot, bit thare is aye consequences tied tae whit ye did th'day." He said and I sat down on the bed.
"Why, I said sorry to everybody," I looked confused.
"Weel, ye aye jeopardized th' men by getting th' rid coats oan oor neck. By th' law o' th' clans yi''ll need tae be punished fur it. 'n' sin a'm yer guidman thay gave me th' jab." He explained and I looked even more confused.
"What punishment?" I asked scared and when he pulled his belt of I pretty well knew what kind of punishment it was.