Am fear eile ~Outlander~

~Chapter Sixty Two~ Skye

With a small bottle or Lavender oil in mine hand, I walked into the room Jamie was laying in.
Willie had talk to him the previous midday and Jamie had begged Willie to kill him. But Willie had refused and walked away.
Apparently he had asked it as well at Murtagh who had also refused for my sake. Murtagh simply holded me as I fainted again and when I woke he came with the idea which I was going to do now.
I sprinkeld the lavender oil on a candle holder and holded the bottle under his nose.
He woke up suprisingly fast. "Skye!"
"Smells familiar, doesn't it?" I asked and he grunted.
"Why? Let me be!" He panted and I rubbed to oil on mine hands and grabbed his face.
"No Jamie, I let you be far to long, I lost someone already, I won't lose you!"
"Nae," he struggled against me but I won't let him win.
"Look at me James Fraser! LOOK AT ME!" I begged and suddenly with all of his strenght in his feverish body he managed to threw me on the ground and before I knew it I was fighting against him with all mine strength but he was stronger.
He laid me on the floor again. "Skye please, I dinna want to hurt ye,"
"A bit late for that, isn't it," I spat. "Mine husband wants to kill himself and he wouldn't tell me why!"
He stopped and climbed of me. "He let me brand myself with his ring,"
I stopped and looked at him. "Jamie," I began but he shut me up.
"He dinna used ainlie force on me," he swallowed. "Nae ainlie that, he made loue tae me,"
I wanted to make him stop talking but Jamie already took me back to that moment.
I froze during the story. Hearing how Randall used mine name to get what he wanted. Jamie' body.
"Jamie," I clutched myself to his body. "No! Please no!"
"Skye, a'm damned. Ah let him dae that!" He said and I shook mine head.
"No your not," I made him look at me. "Jamie he may damaged your body and took it from me. But don't let him take your soul from me. I can't indeed not forgive you because there is nothing to forgive!"
"A wanna ye to touch me. Bit at the same time A canna stand yer touch," he said and climbed on the bed again. Far away from me but I wouldna let that happen.
"Jamie you are mine life now, more than anything else in this world," I forced him to look at me. "I felt nowhere more home than in your arms and if you take that away, if you die. I die with you in this bed."
He swallowed again and saw tears. "Mo nighean dubh. Howfur kin ye hae me lik' this?"
"Because I want you, anyway I can." I cried and wrapped mine arms around his shoulder. "Always James. Your mine forever just like I'm yours forever,"
I felt tears from his eyes fell on mine shoulder and he placed soflty his hand on mine back.
We where both scared and broken as result of what happend in Wentworth but I know. With strenght and time we both get over it.