Am fear eile ~Outlander~

~Chapter Sixty one~ Skye

I felt death, as well from the inside as from the outside. Murtagh forced me to talk but I couldn't. Jamie' screams still rang in mine ears.
"We should go back," I said and Murtagh looked at me.
"Are ye mad Lass?" he spoke and I turned around.
"I wouldna let him die there Murtagh!" I roared and he aswell as Willie, Rupert and Angus started at me as well as the man who let us shelter in his house. "James is there with that monster,"
"James ye say is his name. James Fraser, Ellen Mackenzie's son?" The host asked and Murtagh nodded. "Ah wished A could help ye lass, but I have no man and Bairns to think off,"
Suddenly the sounds of cows sounded and Murtagh looked outside and laughed. "How many cattle do ye have?"
"19, the bloody watcher lost a few," the host answered and Murtagh looked at me.
"A ken how to save young Jamie," and without saying more I knew what he meant.

Rupert, Angus and Murtagh went to rescue Jamie as I and Willie stood in the distance as we saw how the Highland cows barched into the prison.
"God please," I whispered and then I saw it. Three horses and a carriage.
The got him, as fast as I could I rushed towards him and Rupert stopped the carriage as I jumped in.
"Jamie, liefje*," I spoke and lifted the tartan blanket to see what the damage was. "What have they done?" A tear fell and Rupert turned around.
"Ah dinnae wantae speak peely-wally o' him. Bit he is howfin'" I know Scottish well enough now to know Rupert found that Jamie smelled.
I bended forward and sniffed. "Lavender Oil," I spoke. "To reli...." suddenly Jamie' hand laid around mine throat.
"Dinna touch me!" He roared and Murtagh jumped in.
"Jamie, it's yer lass," Murtagh realised me.
Jamie grunted something back in Gaelic  and Murtagh shrugged his shoulders. "He is delirious,"
The rest of the trip was silent until we reached a monastery. Willie quickly introduced me to father Anselm before taking care of Jamie.
"We'll see to to him girl," the father promised me and I nodded.
"I want to be there," I spoke softly and he nodded.
"You can," I followed him inside to the room where Jamie was. Grunting in pain.
"Greer, where is Greer?" I heared weakly and I walked towards the bed to lay mine hand on his arm but he quickly pulled away. "Dinna touch me!"
"Jamie, I want to help. So talk to me," I begged. "What happend, I can handle."
"Tae much," he turned his face away. "'n' still nae enough,"
A monk walked in and carefully took Jamie's hand.
"This will be painfull," he looked at me and than at Jamie. "Here," he gave Jamie a spoon. "It's laudanum, it will help ye sleep,"
Jamie opened his mouth let the medicine go into his mouth. "More,"
The monk shook his head but Jamie suprisingly fast grabbed the bottle and empty it in one sip and he passed out quickly.
"You can better leave now," the monk said but I refused.
"I promised before god to be with this man in better or worse," I spoke and he nodded as he let me sat down in a chair.
The monk was quite professional and he sat the hand good and clean like they would do in mine own time.
I gave directions for a version of the splint to help it heal better and quicker.
The monk nodded and did what he was told.
After he was done he help me stand up and walked with me out of the room. Murtagh waited for me but I rushed beside him. Throwing up in a corner and than finally collapsed against the wall, crying.

The next morning or was it midday I woke up from a scream. A scream I painfully know it was from Jamie.
I jumped out of bed and rushed towards his room only to find Murtagh next to him.
"What happend?" I asked worried and Murtagh looked at me.
"Nothing," he said and stood up. "Greer, follow me,"
I followed Murtagh outside and he looked at me. "Yer nae longer save here, we have family living in Paris,"
"Yes?" I asked knowing where he wanted to go.
"A book a passageway to it for ye and Jamie," he continued and I nodded.
If that was the only option so be it, but standing one more minute on this forsaken ground and I will lose it.
The only thing left was to cure Jamie and there was only one way.

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*Sweetie