The Abandoned Lovers

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Chapter 34 - I Don't Know

I don't even know what I think, or why I cut again. But I felt like I had to. Maybe it's because that's all I know.

-Summer's POV-

I was yawning, putting my arms to the sides of my head, hoping that Kingston was coming over tonight.

River runs his hand against my side as I close my eyes. Suddenly he speaks out, "Why did you do it?" He asks and I open my eyes slowly, furrowing my eyebrows with a questioning look.

"I- uh- did I- what?" I ask stupidly and he chuckles, rubbing his fingers along my face and pushing fallen hair behind my ear.

"I saw the cut, did you do it?" He asks and I  sit up, looking down at my lap, I know he doesn't want me to. I know. But I don't know why I did it.

I just don't want to hurt any of them.

"Yea, I did." I say and he leans in, wrapping his arms softly around my neck.

He sadly smiles down at me, "Please, stop." He starts, "I do not know why you did it, and I will not be arrogant about it this time and say you do not have a reason. But please, I care about you." He says, our breath colliding as we speak.

"That's the thing, I did.... i did it because I think I'm in love with Kingston." I say and his jaw drops.

"Finally!" He says and I raise an eyebrow, he turns to me fully and smiles.

"He has l-"

Kingston opens the door, his dark figuring stepping in the backseat with me, putting his arms around my neck and putting his buckle around him.

"Melanie stole my car because she said I was a dick. She doesn't even know how to drive so she got Miah to do it with her. So I need a ride." He says and I chuckle.

But it goes silent, tension radiating off of River.

"But tell me one thing you do know, what did Madeline do to you?" He asks, catching me off guard.

"How do you know-" I start but he cuts me off waving his hand, "Please just tell me, you matter a lot to us and I do not want to hurt you by dating her. I know what she did to Melanie." He says, my smile falls as I lean my head against the black seats.

"Summer?" Kingston asks wearily, pushing hair out of my face, his face full of so many emotions. But so much concern.

I sigh, taking a breath in and looking at my lap.

"Madeline would put notes telling me to kill myself in my locker every day, she hated me and still does. I guess it's because at the time my family seemed so perfect. And her dad had just left. I guess she leaves me alone more know because she saw me fall apart after so many years." I say quickly, trying to get past the topic.

"I get you do not want to talk about it, but I will not hurt you by dating her. I do not know why you would be nice enough to let me date her." He says and I look up at him even though he can't see me.

"Because I want you to be happy." I say, his smile change into a bright one instead of a sad one.

But Kingston pulls my face towards his, peppering kisses all over me after he gets out of his state of confusion.

"You are sleeping in my room tonight." He says and I giggle.

A few tears spill from my eyes, but he reaches back and wipes them away. "What you have been through is not okay, I will never say it is. But all you can do now is use it to become the amazing person you are." He says with a smile and I hold his hand.