The Abandoned Lovers

-45-

Chapter 45 - Don't Listen to a Word I Say

"I got you I got you, I promise Baby I didn't mean it I promise."

That's all I hear, it's on repeat in my head, like a boomerang.

Back.
Forth.
Back.
Forth.
Back.
Forth.

Oh god I need to breathe.

I sit up quickly, gasping for air as I lay in a bed. My breathing is heavy as I stare out the window. The wide window in front of me that just shows white.

I blink a few more times, my head pounding as my eyes get used to the brightness. They readjust, and I know where I am.

The view in front of me is Mt Salutos hill, the view I get when I wake up at rivers house.

WAS IT A DREAM.

please be a dream please be a dream I can't lose Kingston, please....

But it wasn't a dream. I feel the fingernail cuts deep into arms, a few on my hands and throat. Tears form in my eyes as they fall, over and over and I can't stop them.

It's like I'm in a boomerang again as everything just comes back to me. Kingston's words, everything that happened.

My stomach churns and my sheet hurts as I ball, I hear a groan next to me as a hand falls on my knee, "Shes up!!" They yell but it feels like a monotone screams that echoes all over my mind like a baby toy, rattling.

I look up, blinking before I see I'm better view the person who put their hand in my knee.

"HELP! HELP ME!" I scream as everything I was thinking of disappears and fight or flight mode kicks in.

It's Kingston, and when I scream he backs up immediately, his eyes showing pure emotion again but god I don't want to see them. I don't want to see him again. I don't want those eyes dug into my life, I don't want to know what happened I just want it to be over.

Footsteps come stomping up the stairs immediately, some voices radiating from out the door as I fall off the bed, crawling backwards on my knee, my eyes shut closed as tight as possible.

"Please go! Please go away! I just want it to be over! It was supposed to be over-" I scream at him as something comes at me from behind.

I back away, opening my eyes to see Melanie. "Go away! I want it to be over! Please make it over please!" I scream as somebody picks me up form my waist, I kick my legs and scream but nothing happens.  "WHY IS SHE ALLOWED HERE?!" I scream but even they just... nothing is happening.

"Please!!" I say as I calm down, my eyes drooping but finally open as I see Reid in front of me. "Reid!" I scream, finally trusting somebody as whoever let's me out of their arms and I run towards him.

I grab onto his arms as I look up at him with hope, wanting to leave. I wasn't safe here. I don't care if I was scaring everybody they deserve it.

So what if I'm a monster to them I should be dead.

I wanna be dead.

I look up at Reid, my voice calming down as I look at him and give him a sad smile. "You didn't know, right?" I say as I take deep breaths, goosebumps all over me.

He doesn't answer me.

"You didn't know right?!" I ask again and he swallows, trying to grab my arms but missing as he softly says, "Summer, listen..."

"No!" I scream as I back up slowly, "You all knew didn't you!" I scream and Mel hisses, "What? Knew what?!" To which I scoff, "Don't act all fucking innocent! You looked at me this morning and acted like you didn't fuck Kingston after you knew how I felt! Why are you still here!" I scream and they don't have a response, everybody is speechless.