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22 NYC

After some events like Nick's birthday came up and he turned 14 years old, and he goes bragging and saying he is taller and I go on my tippy toes saying nope and when I get down I say "you people make me feel so short". He laughs and smiles, and I kiss him on the cheek. It was suppose to be the day after his birthday but there was a better deal so the trip became May the 21st and that day was the best of my life. So almost everyone came, the only people that can come were the people who were graduating, and even if it is a private school it doesn't mean it was any different from public school, but I'd say security was better and more observant. Everyone went on the bus, I sat next to my friends Jazmyn and Jordyn and listened to music on AirPods and Nick was next to us sitting with Dominic. Suddenly he sees that another couple Mia and Edgar were sitting together and he wanted me to sit me him, and it took me a while to agree because I am super protective when it comes to people seeing us mainly because I had two strikes before. After five minutes I'm finally next to him and he holds my hand, and if I'm being honest holding his hand makes me feel protected by him and I always know I will be comfortable with him through the weirdest moments even if I do end up like a tomato. 10-15 minutes later we finally get off although it felt like 5 minutes probably cause everyone talks a lot and we were at the subway, which took a while and of course I sat somewhere and Nick was next to me and in front of me was Jazmyn and Jordyn. I was scared because I honestly never took the subway and they all told me your ears pop and I was sort of scared by that. Nick held my hand and I felt really safe at the moment and we just spoke to each other and I felt like this trip was really going to take our relationship to the next level not that there are levels but I felt more attached and I knew I was turning into a tomato every time I saw him. I was trying something new or as people saying "experimenting" and starting to touch, but I didn't know if he wanted me to touch him, but he does touch me, so I'd say its on and off feelings about the thought. We got off and had to go on what I think is a train and after a few minutes we were finally off. And we were in groups that the teachers had listed. I had my friends Jordyn and Jazmyn in that group, which was great. I wanted to spend a lot of time with them, but the thing is Nicholas wanted to spend time with me as well, and if it came to my friends and Nick it would have been hard to choose. Either way I didn't see a reason for groups because as soon as we got to Central Park Zoo we weren't in groups anymore. We had to meet in the middle of the zoo at 3:00 p.m., and we were free to walk wherever we liked in there, so that was the fun part. I kissed Nick in a tiny tunnel where there were some animals and my friend Kayla poked my eye attempting to slap me to not do it, which hurt and had me very annoyed, but I didn't say anything. I walked everywhere and I was going to hang out with Jazmyn and Jordyn, but Nick wanted to be with me the whole time. So wherever I walked he walked, and don't get me wrong I think it's adorable because I actually never thought he was going to be this close. I don't want to make him sound like an uptight stalker because he is not, but I thought of today as a date. I have never been on a date with him although I wanted to. I had a great time with him and it was sort of hot so I unbuttoned two buttons even though I think it's suppose to be one but no one said anything and I didn't really care, and Nick thought it was too much, and I was like "Oml", and I wasn't going to do it so he said "Oh, you want me to do it", and I sarcastically said "sure" not because I didn't want him to, but I'm a very sarcastic person. I just like to be annoying and he likes to mock me and annoy me as well. I'd say we had a very great time and my friend Kayla took some pictures without me knowing and they weren't half bad, I said "Oh for once I look decent". I have a lazy eye when I look into a camera sometimes and I hate it but when I don't have one when I look at the camera I'm say "Oh, good". I was going somewhere with Jordyn, but I wanted Nick to know just Incase he wonders where I am and he ended up tagging along which was really sweet because I may be as boring as it seems, but he loves me for who I am and even if I tease him about certain things I love him. We went with my friend Malakh and Jordyn and for some reason Malakh asked for a group hug and apparently I'm not really sure but Nick didn't want me to hug him, but I think its mainly because Nick and Malakh don't really like each other and there conversations end up into an argument, and I don't really blame him because Malakh makes a lot a racist and sexist jokes that sometimes hurt. I was just happy Nick cared enough, so while I hugged him, it was sort of a circle and Jordyn hugged me and Malakh hugged both of us. Then, we went to the gift shop, I wanted to buy a panda, but I was like I'm only going to buy one thing even though I do have the money and it's going to be for me and Nick. I said something looked cute and without him looking which he wanted to buy for both of us I bought it in secret and he sort of didn't want me to waste my money, but if the gift was for him it was worth it. And it was nearly 3:00 so we scrammed around a bit and then we went to see a short Ice Age clip in 4D, which was fun and it only lasted like 5-10 minutes, and we were heading back on the train. I lost Nick at that point, so I looked for him but couldn't find it. I just knew that he was on the train. Then we made our stop walked where the subway was stopped, and I touched something, not on accident, but for personal reasons I'm not going to say. We were taking seats and I saw Alejandro, who is a kid that people are weirded out by, and I suppose I am his only real friend, so I sat next to him, and Nick wasn't sure about that because he also doesn't get along with him and me and Alejandro talked and me and Nick listened to his and mine music. Kevin got caught watching something he wasn't suppose to. Finally we are heading home and barely anyone was on the bus yet because we were in front, so we got to sit in the back, and to be honest I'd say that was my favorite part of the trip. Nick sat next to the window way in the back and I sat next to him, and I was super sleepy, so I told him I loved him and I laid my head on his shoulder while he talked to Zahra, who is a really good person and keeps secrets locked and was most likely the number one person who supported us, and my friends Jazmyn and Jordyn sat in front of us. I looked at Nick like five time, and then he tapped me and does something with his lips, and I said nothing, and I suppose you know the rest, but then my hair got in the way, so I pulled my hair back. We stopped after 10 seconds and I felt like doing it again, so we did it again around three times, and we stopped. He asked if I wanted to do it again because I honestly likes the moment, and I was cherishing the days I have left with him, and I said it was his decision because I didn't want to push my limits, and then ten seconds later he said "Now I want to do it again". I pulled my hair back, and I put my hand on his cheek and we went in a movement that I don't know how to explain, and we stopped. I asked Jazmyn to give me back my Air Pods when she was done, and I laid on Nick's shoulder while he talked to Zahra again, and suddenly I feel tugging on my shirt and I look at him and he asks " Do you mind" and I was confused until I realized what he meant and I let him and he asked why afterwards and I told him it was because I trust him, and he asked "You really trust me with that", and I said yes because he is the most trustworthy person I know in the 8th grade and the fact that he asked permission really showed me he cared and was a gentlemen. I touched him again as well. We were almost at school and I felt like doing it at least one more time, so we made- out, but we didn't know when to stop, so when we sort of stopped at the same time our teeth bonked, and I laughed and smiled, and laid on his shoulder again. Finally, we stopped at the school and I wanted to at least kiss him goodbye because I knew I wouldn't have a chance in the school while getting our belonging and my sister care and wanted to torment him and she found out about us because of Kayla like two days before the trip. And I locked his lock because he locked mine in the morning so PAYBACK, and that was the best day that has happened in my lifetime.